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feeza.monjeng
10 december
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The person you wanted to be.
The person you are.~

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&pissed off
Wednesday, December 30, 2009, 2:20 PM




see this is the things that really pisses me off.
before my Os each time i ask you if i can go out you say go study lah. dont go out.
you said no. so fine,i study my ass out.
for wad? for freedom aft Os.
all the outings and meet ups my frens had before Os,i was barely there.
why? coz you want me to stay at home and study.
i became a good daughter and study quietly at home.
i had tuition for every subject and i was always home early. i was rarely with my frens aft school.
i always had to say "i chao first. have tuition." and they disturb me say i have "no life".
but its fine. coz i agree. at that point of time i had no life.
dec i alrd started tuition for Os. and it continued for months.
i had tuition almost 2 to 3 times per week. but its ok. i endured.
coz this is wad u want. you want me go jc right? i study.



then now. after Os,i ask if i can go out and you said no.
whereas someone who have to prepare for Alevels is not home right now.
you barely even scold her when she go out. or reach home late.
she can go out anytime she wants. then me leh. i have to sit home and do wad?
iron ur shirts. eh hello. im not the one who have to study for Alevels ok.
i have finished my Olevels and i deserve freedom. did you say no to the wrong the daughter?
my father feels the same way as i do. but does it help? no.
i have given you wad u want before. maybe now's ur turn to give me wad i want.
i dont want to do things that can make it worse.



if you remember the night u came back? i fought with bro and i just walked out from the house.
and only came back 11pm. i can do things u think i cant.
but i dont want to. i want to go out the correct way.
people an see the difference for this 1 mth.
this is unfair. if seeing me sit like a looney alone at home can make you happy..
then fine. as long as you happy ok.
people say "suffer now,enjoy later". mine wld be "suffer now,suffer more later".
this is the things that really pisses me off.
see the way i piss you off? its the same as the way you piss me off.
we're not so different after all.
wadever. dammit.




&updates
Tuesday, December 29, 2009, 10:10 PM




so yeah. so many things happen alrd. now dec. going to be new year alrd. gosh.
so fast! i just cant believe tat i went thru my Olevels. it seemed unbelievable to me.
really. gosh. thinking bout the results gives me the creeps. heh.
so sunday went to alumni. quite bored that i fell asleep. shh. HAHAHAHA.
bt then oklaa. aft tat go makan. then off home,
we made a bet abt SI. haha. that was funny!



monday went out with zim,dhan and erin.
went to eat a really really big pizza then see alvin and the chipmunks 2.
omgggg so cuteeeeeeeeee.
hahahahha. esp when the chipettes dance single ladies.
gosh! then we go in alrd laugh so loud. like the whole cinema ours. only cn hear our voice. hahahah!
the cinema big lah. at grand cathay. hahaha.
then the whole cinema so quiet suddenly a guy burp so so damn loud. then i shout back "sial laa!"
hahahahahah!! so funny!
then eat ben n jerrys.
then head down to vivo to meet my family.
i was early. so slacked at my dad's office. then gossiped with mindy. hahahaha!!
then we all walk2. bro bought the xbox360 sterring wheel and pedal.
walauwehhh. fun sia. like drive real car. hahahaha!! very cool.



today went out with TKG! fun man. its been so long since we all met.
hahahaha. and today they planned a surprise belated bday celebration for 4 people.
zim and su-june. baz-nov. and me-dec. hahaha
the planners are ain.syam and shahirah.
it was really sweet. and fun. and we 4 had to do silly and really embarrassing dares.
hahahahha. really fun.'
they also made for each of us collages. it was really sweet.
mine had really silly photos of me. hahaha! its a big board.
so wherever we walk people stare. haha! they jeles.
hahahahha! and mine is PINK! hahahahhaha.
im gonna miss them. a perfect outing before the RRRRRR!! hahahah.
and i got to see fasha. omg! she's cute!!



after today dunno wads my plan. dunno wad to do.
new year coming in 2 daysss!!! yay!! lets all partayyyy!!!



love,
monjeng<33
always & forever

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&a few words of mine.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009, 12:00 AM

Today,was a new beginning. it marks the beginning of a new month. a month i so look forward to. but today,didnt bring me much happiness when i wake up. you werent there beside me. thoughts of you were lingering in my head. and shadows of loneliness and silence overpower me. you have gone and when the sun comes up today,my sunshine was not there. the cell was silent and im wishing for you once more. let me hear your voice again. let me breathe you in again. let me feel your hands and warmth. this pain is too much for me to bear. your presence is much stronger than this drug. every minute i ponder about you. im still lingering to your smell. i miss you......




this is me. being emo.


your truly,
monjeng.
always & forever.

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&updates
Monday, November 30, 2009, 10:50 PM


i cant breathe easy. Cant sleep at night.
Till you're by my side.
i cant dream yet another dream. Till you're lying next to me.
There's no air.
I wont forget no i wont,baby i dont know why.
I left the one i was looking to find.


so long never update. busy lah.
so.. olevels over. prom over. family bbq over. band camp over.
parents alrd gone overseas for 1mth. went overseas for holiday.
class chalet tmr!

so many things to say. but forget alrd.
so nevermind. just know that i have freedom now.
other than my brother being a regular pain in my ass.
trying to control me and stuffs.
like wad the hell. like i care.

so today went to buy bbq things at imm with bm,baz and kirby.
all late. didnt manage to catch any sleep last night. haish.
but the things alrd. took cab to my place. put all the things there. then planned out for tmr.
then went to sheng siong with nanny and sis. buy ingredients to cook. wah lau. spend like wad sia.
bm sponsor chicken for bbq.
baz sponser satay for bbq.
kirby sponsor seafood for bbq.
i sponsor 1st day meals,nanny cook and 2nd day meals,i ordered.

i think we 4 the most sian today. haha.
meet baz and the boys at jp ljs on sunday night to discuss.
wah lau. alol so stressed up. $$. then we called mrs gill and mr su. they agreed to come.
funny sia. then i called mrs tan today. then aft tat home

tmr chalet alrd. my head like wan explode. play cafe world better lah.
so yeah sleeping over there. gonna bring my twister and poker. dunno wad else.
ask ppl bring laptop lah. i lazy bring.
okay then. will update soon.


out of my mind,nothing makes sense anymore.
i want you back in my life. tats all im breathing for.


toodles.




&tension tension
Tuesday, September 08, 2009, 11:25 PM


just as both of them were leaving,things had to turn out this way.i hate it.hate it.hate it.
things are never gonna be the same anymore.




so last week was prelims.sci practical,eng paper,maths paper and mly paper.
so far so good. been working my ass off.



friday night/wee hrs of the morning,kuzzins from kl came down.i couldnt open my eyes to welcome them,i only move to my parents room coz i need my aunt and uncle wld sleep in my room.woke up next morning and ehem ehem i was in my parents bed wif my parents. hahahahah. like small kid ah sleep wif parents. hahaha. cute wad.
so yadayadayada. blahblahblah.
at night was fun.we were like out till late night. last was mustafa. great memories there.
reach home ard 3pluss am.



adults go sleep. as usual the kids nvr sleep early. hahaha. so we were bored. so started munching. then we watch syurga cinta again. dunno how many times watch alrd. then we just slack. at 6plus am then i sleep.



woke up at 3pm the next day. ahahaha. atikah and fikri were here. haha. so chill with them. and atikah was being so silly but cute. haha.
then they went home ard 5plus. so the men[s] go buy food,then i took my own sweet time to bathe. coz havent bathe! hahahaha!!! then breakfast. ydaydayda. then kids and my parents go out. mama need buy some last minit things.
then there's this bubble tea shop i went to it and ask "u still got sell bubble tea?". the person was like "oh sorry,we close alrd." but i still want u noe. so i say "for me can?" then i show my cute little face. HAHAHAHHAA. STILL NEVER GET MY BUBBLE TEA!!! hahahahhaa. then off home.



at that point of time,i swear i knew it was coming. why did he have to open his mouth to say it? cant wait for another time? wah liau. imagine 4 kids[scratch tat] young adults being so confused and damn shocked.1 on the comp,1 eating a dozen donuts,1 slacking and 1 feeding turtles. how u expect us to react man? u think we not affected by this whole thing? we are ok. and we do think about this.



so that night was different. it was really awkward. we can sense that. tat night,we played twister to made us feel lighter abit. it was fun lah. then we eat again. then we watch 4bia again. dunno how many times i watch alrd. from scary scene become funny to me. hahaha. then slack slack. lie down by tat time kena go bathe alrd.



so went to bathe then get ready to leave. send momma to airport. tension was still there. so left the house ard 5.45am. reach airport ard 6pluss. momma check in her luggage. then she went in ard 6am oso. we and sis were like banging on the glass doors shouting "momma dont go". haha. she going to hk for school visit for 1 wk. haiyo. can die.



then the 4 of us go back to the car and slept. coz we were so damn tired. never even sleep.pathetic right?cleep in car. slept from 7am till 9.30am coz need send granny and aunt. so drive to T2 then wait for them to arrive. granny and aunt going somesort haj/umrah. so yeah. they went in ard 11am. as usual kids wif kl peeps one side. those unwanted,other side. hehe. they all say im very bad. well..thats my nickname. haha. then blabla went home and kl fam went back to kl.



reach home and slept all the way till 6pm. haha. prepare for breakfast. guess wad we eat? ljs. sad right? nemind nemind. at night momma called. hehe. miss momma. then blablabla.



today one whole day at home. nvr go out. i manage to wash my shoes,hang bro's clothes,strum the guitar and since i was so damn bored,i cook smth for break fast. hahahaha. nope. no burnt.



alrite gonna go back to my books. gonna have macd for sahur later. :(( nemind. just one week. endure endure. bt granny wld only be back 3days aft raye.




love,
monjeng.
always & forever.

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&what you're looking for has been here the whole time.
Friday, August 28, 2009, 10:30 PM


i count you as a privilege.this love is so ideal.
im honoured to be in it. i know you feel the same.



what can i say to convince you to change your mind? for me.
im going to love you more than anyone.




so on saturday we started fasting. went to school in the morning for malay extra class.
after that head to art room. then went to canteen to do dnt.
guess i was too tired that i slept on the canteen bench. hahaha.
they were having band so pop in awhile.
aft that head to tamp to break fast as a family. it was fun. wafaa was there too.
after eating,we just slacked. i went down for some fresh air.
wafaa was at the playground so slack there wif mom and sis. she was so hyper.
we played catching together. she's just so cute. haha.
then there's this choc fiesta.there were 2 big boxes of ferero. 4toblerone and many other choc.
then we celebrated my aunt's and sis's bday. as usual,sabo. hahaha.
then went home.



sunday woke up at 12noon. alone.
bro working. nenek meet her members. sis meet her members. parents at new house.
so i stayed at home. be a good student and finish my pb2. then slack.



mon geja didnt come school. we had chem practical mock. so fun. hahaha.
after school head to jp to meet bro. got myself an ellesse watch.
actual price $425. sale $150. worth it was. bro pay $100 i pay $50.
he bought for me like a "bday present". so ya.
then meet sis and she bought her nike jacket. bro paid for her bday.
then off home took cab. then went reach home guess wad???
I REALISE MY PHONE NOT IN MY POCKET!!
it fell off in the taxi. dammit dammit dammit.
i swear i was like scolding myself and cursing the person who took my phone.
then no mood to eat. daddy called m1 to terminate my line and ask for new card.
mummy said maybe its a sign to make me study. so i decided to finally let go of the cookie.
then daddy go collect my new card and get myself a new but temporary phone.
cant be choosy. so yeah.
at night as usual burn midnight oil.
so if u all msg me and i ask who are you,dont get offended. heh.



on tuesday geja didnt come again. so first 2 period free. aft tat 4 period of dnt.
aft recess mr su nvr come so 2 period free. then aft tat mrs tan nvr come so and 2 period free.
then go homeeee hahahaha. but no lah. the mr tan called us back for chem prac. haha.
then slacked awhile. did my dnt. then went home. did dnt awhile then sleep.
then break fast then tuition.



wed geja nvr come again. first 3 period free. so we planned for the teachers day thingy.
coincidentally i brought my dslr to school.
so we took class photos and videos. so fun sia. photos at fb.
then we called her. all of us crowd around. one by one call then she nvr pick up.
then use boon meng iphone call and on loudspeaker. everyone crowd tgt.
then seh pick up and we all shouted " GOOD MORNING GEJA!!"
hahahaha. she was like oh hello hello.
then we ask why she nvr pick up she say she at toilet. haha.
then we talk2 awhile. then she say we not supposed to use phone.
then we say public phone. hahahahha. so cute lah geja.
then had to put down coz mrs tan at the door. she ask we talk to geja then all was like yeahhh.
mrs tan call geja. then say say "i tried to call you but cannot get through so 4e7 was the culprit".
hahahahaha.
mly lesson i cant help but sleep. too tired. then sel period we took video again. dedicated to geja.



after school head to dnt awhile. take photo with my models. hahahaha.
then head home. do dnt awhile then sleep. hahahaha.
me,baz,max and jm challenged who can sleep the latest.
so from 8pm i started to do my journal. first i do journal.
then i draw my contextual. i feel my contextual cute. eric oso say so. hahaha.
ltr i draw again then i scan. hahahaha. so i did my dnt all the way.
dunno how many cups of coffee. hahaha.
so at 3+ i cnnot take it alrd. so i texted them say i sleeping soon. cannot take it.
when i lay my head on the pillow,my mom came into my room and ask to eat.
wah liau. so went to eat awhile then sleep. by that time it was ard 4am alrd.
so slept at 4am and woke up at 6am.
i tell you my eyes i swear cannot open sia. hahahaha.



so thurday i almost nvr go school. seriously my eyes cannot open.
like can faint sia. reach school,first 2 period eng..talk to mrs tan to let us do dnt.
then she was like oklah can. seo did dnt in class.
ard 10 ppl never come and most of it is dnt students.
busted ah they all. nvr come then dun wan tell. if i noe i oso nvr come sia.
so tired. and finally thurs geja came. hahahah. but then only got half the class.
then blablabla. aft sch went to dnt. paste my pb 3. then hand in.
finally! all pb done. cancelled tuition coz seriously need to do dnt.
so off home then slept in the afternoon.
after break fast did dnt all the way. did until 12plus.



then the boon meng go call me.then conference with kumar. then call max join. hahahha.
then all dunno wad to do alrd. bm go call geja. HAHAHHAHAH!!!
imagine calling geja at 1am. we all were like HELLLO.
she was like "u all pls go sleep. u have prelims tmr."
so we say we drink too much coffee until cannot sleep. hahahaha.
then we ask if she slp alrd. then she say "yes yes. im already in lalaland."
so we let her sleep loh. say gd nite then she sleep. then i tell them i wan study ss so i put down.
i only study venice. so read on venice. took out my ss tys.
then ard 1plus sleep.



today went to school as per normal. still quite tired but ok lah.
reach school head to hall for prelims. 1st paper ss. then eng paper 1.
woah today first day of prelims and i nv study properly.
all dnt fault lah. nvm nvm. then aft exam head to dnt room to do my dnt.
finish up on my research and evaluation. then some final touch up on my pbs and journal.
then went out to bind my journal. counted and got 80pg.
wah liau. imagine from 20+ pg become 80 pg in few days. hahahaha.
pelajar contoh! hak piuk ah! hahahaha.
then paste sticker for all my pbs and journal. wah felt my shoulder at ease.
like i let go all my burden alrd. hahahaha. then edit here and there. coz someone say not nice la kn.
then zim and baz go draw2 at my cover page. so funny sia. hahahahha.
even eric laugh when see. hhahhahah. like no link to dnt at all. hahahhahaha.



then off home.we were in the bus and suddenly i look outside and i saw the pri sch girl riding bicycle which is like too big for her then she fall down.
no no. not when riding. she fall down when at trafic light. i cant help but laugh non stop.
then at another stop got this pakcik carry the cucu beg. pink colour. but so high. at the head there.
then laugh again. we all non stop laugh. hahahahha.
at home,shower then sleep. cannot take it man.
really really lack of sleep.
today i take off. i not gonna study today. i think this week study is overwhelming. hahahha.



so yeah.
think i need lots of rest this weekend.
gonna off now.
buhbye.




love,
monjeng.
always & forever.

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&official update.
Saturday, August 08, 2009, 9:45 PM



im backkkkk.
watched gi-joe rise of the cobra just now.
i swear to god its nice.
its really action packed from beginning till the end.
you all should watch.
i might even consider watching it again.
its nice lahh. really.

so let me flashback. from the first day of term 3 alrd my temp was high.
but didnt go home. so yeah. stayed back almost everyday do dnt.
and yes im done with my artefact and pboard 1.
nw im doing pboard 2 and 3 and touch up on journal.
band fiesta was great. really. sec 4s last outdoor performance before end of year concert.
its was fun. really. so now officially sec 4s have stepped down.

so yeah. 4e7 had many issues with ________.
it was kind of unreasonable. but wad to do.
______'s character is like tat wad. so yeah. cant be helped.

there was once when i fast. so when home early and sleep.
after i break my fast,when i wan shower... Baz msged me saying tat nenek keropok was at her's.
wah liaooo i panik sia. coz only me and my gradma at home.
had a like 2mins bathe then close the windows and off the lights.
call mummy daddy and sis to quickly come home.
since bro working call him oso no use. hahahah. it was funny man.
mom told my big family and they all laughed at me. hahahha.
i oso thought i was kinda silly. hahaha!

now every week i have tuition 2 times.
its really tiring. but tuition with yazeed was fun.
i told him about the nenek keropok and he cant stop laughing.
hahahahha. every night i would sleep ard 2+ to 3am coz im studying.
i really have no life now. my amaths,emaths,chem,phy,lit,ss,eng and dnt are my bfs.
hahahahhaa! each time i lie on the bed i can just naturally fall asleep.
i've done tat many times this week. hahaha!

national day with 4e7 was really fun.
it started out mundane where everyone was lifeless.
we were expecting something more. but its ok.
i was determined to make the full out of my last nd at sch.
so we made our humanoid and BM plugged in his iphone to geja's lappy.
the first song was low and everyone started getting high. hahaha.
we all sing sing then suddenly hsm breaking free came on.
we all laugh at BM but then everyone sing along.
geja brought for us some deco materials she had. like pasar malam! hahaha.
then we all design the back notice board.
it seems like the sun is our mascot. hahahaha.
apparently our class won 1st prize. we were happy lah.
finally we can make geja proud,coz all we do this yr is cause prob for her.
she was really happy tat day. her smile like take laughing gas. hahahaha!!!!
so yeahhh. we all had a great time.
slacked at macd with the girls for a while then off home. tired loh.
somemore so hot. at night when to new house.
tats all.
gotta go meet my bf now. hahahahhaha.

byeeeeeeeeeeee
love,
monjeng<33
always&forever.




&long post.
2:55 PM

national day celebration @ school.






4e7 mascot. hahahaah!








bday boy's present. hahahaha!












geja extra extra happy today! hahahahha








4e7 winners!
































my humanoid. baz said it looks like gule-gule. go figure. hahaha.
1st aug family reunion.


the no of baskin and robin we each had. hahahahha.
















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yet again another family reunion at my house.










































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so yeah. so long never update. these are the photos. at night later i will update in words.
coz i going out now. weeeeee. gotta shower. hehe. then go out.
ok then. will update latorrr.
chao

love,
feeza monjeng
always& forever.






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