'Cause you said, said he was the one
Baby yes you said, said you were in love
feeza.monjeng
10 december
YUHUA CONCERT BAND
SPARKSWIND
~Because sometimes you have to step
outside the person you've been and
remember the person you were meant to be.
The person you wanted to be.
The person you are.~
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&thank you
Thursday, September 23, 2010, 11:40 PM
thanks for clearing up.
22 september 2010.
my first thought this morning was ‘i feel okay’. you know what i mean-that
moment before you remember who you are and what the actual facts of your
life are? my first thought, in my gut, in my body, was ‘i feel okay’. i
haven’t felt that in a long time. usually, you know, i open my eyes and i
already feel like shit. like in my sleep i was feeling like shit, and
waking up was just an extension of that, you know? but this morning, my
first thought was ‘i feel okay’. as if my body wasn’t, you know, housing
any more sadness.
you know when people say communication is very important to clear
any misunderstandings or unhapiness. i think it's really true.
and i doesnt matter if the beginning both seems unhappy with each other,
or maybe one. but talking, and giving in really helps to clear the air.
oh yea did i mention about jive camp? it was superb. im serious.
the few hours before we go home there was a mass captain's ball game at agora.
so my team made it to finals. like cool. and we had to fight with a damn rough team.
the planners was like "they are very rough. so you can decide to just play or back out,
bt have to be careful". so we played. like durh. who doesnt love a challenge.
and i tell you they are damn rough. im serious. i feel like kicking their asses.
oh yea my team super gerek. we all know each other coz we are class neighbours! hahaha!
so one of my team members hidung kene tumbok and berdarah.
another 2, their knees were bleeding.
funny story was, i was the goal keeper. then i catch the ball already,got this girl run up to me
go scratch my hand and pull me down from the high chair.
i was super pissed. she fell down to the floor,
i went to her and wanted to punch her. im serious, i was like in the "ready" position alrd.
hands ready all. then she was like covering her face so i just walk away,
hhaahahahha they all kept laughing coz they didnt expect me to want to punch her.
but seriously ah. play so rough for what. still lose.
hahahaha! we won. coz we're aweeeesome. our team name, PANAS!
so yeah i was really really tired the 2nd day. maybe thats why,
seriously damn damn tired. watched "the last song" with peishan at 2am.
coz i downloaded it and put at my iphone4. so watch, half way i knock out. hahahhha!
woke up in the middle of the night and she also sleeping. beside me.
hahahahaha! so when im tired, damn damn tired till cannot help it already
i just stop being tired and go crazy. im serious. no joke, true story. haha!
so when i go crazy, obviously i do things without thinking. like reckless things.
which probably explains why i wanted to punch the girl. hahahaha!
and also why silly texts are sent. like seriously ah.
especially at night or earlyyy morning, msg me at night and you will get replies full of crap.
or for that matter if those i sent at night really w/o thinking one.
so if wanna text me, msg me at maybe.... 11am onwards?
yea those are my "sane" moments. hahahahaha!
guess i have to be? since i'll be in class most of those times.
oh yea did i mention gjp has been real sweet lately?
every day he would ask me hows my day. yda yda yda,
and he even joined me and the girls ytd. like wow right.
he's usually so busy but ytd he joined us. and it was the best night ever.
he's my awesome guy.
am i crapping again?
hahahahhaha bye.
love,
monjeng
always & forver