remember tonight for it is the beginning of always

&HI

2011-05-30T10:53:00.000-07:00

HI MY CLASSMATES WHO ARE STALKING MY BLOG NOW. IM GNA PRIVATE MY BLOG.
BYE
HAHAHAHAHAHHA

Life's Good

2011-04-10T16:45:00.000-07:00

Rainbow Cupcakes

Seoul Garden HotPot

Good Food = Life's Good

2011-04-10T16:30:00.000-07:00

Ice Cream Buffet

Hong Kong

;Agnes B Cafe

;Dim Sum Restaurant

Chilis;Kuala Lumpur

Tony Romas;Kuala Lumpur

&happy new year

2010-12-31T12:00:00.000-08:00

to be completely honest..
i’m really not thankful for much this year. i’ve had a really tough year
and well.. the universe has not been good to me. in fact, it’s been
downright mean. and i’m not sure i even like myself right now.

The thing about life that I’ve learned is that you’re going to get hurt.
You’re going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours.
You’re going to suffer some kind of loss. But you will also have those
moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you
smile for the first time again. you feel like you’re alive again. Life
just kind of restarts.

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you
wonder what happenend to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever
think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think
about again. But you do.

You can never plan the future by the past.

So when each day is getting better, why bother looking at all the stupid
drama that happened in the past?

After all that i went through in 2010, especially the start of the year. I was in depression,
MOE , studies and all..
All i want in the year 2011, is to be happy.
Other than that in 2011, all i want is to be happy, stay happy and continue focussing on
studies, career, interest and work for my success.

surprise me, life.

Goodbye 2010.

&Hong Kong

2010-12-30T16:15:00.000-08:00

So yeah. Im back from my holiday.

It was awesome. Seriously.

I was actually looking forward to it alrd 3 weeks before we go.

Maybe after everything that happened this year this was just what I needed.

Okay lah hor. Was supposed to go korea with gjp. But he so busy.

Ok dah.

So talking bout my holiday here and there.

Hong Kong is really beautiful. That I must agree.

The airport is also unique, you must take a train to get to the checkout area.

Cool or whud uh. hahah!

So yeah so after getting out baggage and all went to wait for the guy to meet us

and send us to our hotel.

Oh yah, I did eat my pills before flying off. haha!

but the flight was 8am. and since im seriously not a morning person,

i slept throughout the whole journey. Didnt even bother to watch the tv.

So yeah, reach our hotel. Check in. The kids room wasnt ready so lepak parents room 1st.

Then went out for late lunch back to hotel all sleep. hahahah!

Slept for a few hours. Went out at night to watch the symphony of lights.

Funny story : my mom brought us there because when she went HK with her friends she

thought this symphony of lights was so boring so she brought us for revenge. Hahahaha!

It was quite okay lah. Not that boring just that i didnt get the whole point.

Then went to starbucks for coffee and cakes then jalan2 here and there then back to hotel.

Next day went for brunch at the dim sum place. It was awesome sia.

SERIOUSLY!!! the dim sum damn niceee!!

Then went to city gate and spend the whole day there shopping.

Omg damn awesomeee!!

Surprisingly, as i walk2 at hong kong.. There's not many kate spade outlets.

Shocking! Coz i planned to get pate spade beg, bute yeah the story comes later.

So shopping at city gate i bought super lots of things. hahaha!

Then met up with sis's friend liyana and her family who went HK few days before us.

They all like hugging session I go shopping somemore. hahaha!

At night went to LM. See2 there seriously like PS.

But i scared sia wanna shop there. You ask them once, they will kinda force you to buy.

Dont dare ask sia. Scared they come chop me when i flips hair and walk away.

HAHAHAHHA!!

Then saw my sis the friend again. hahaha! She hug me say I like pillow. Hahaha!

This is the same friend who that time came my house see my sis then jump on me when i sleeping. Her sec sch till jc friend.. so obviously i wld know her. Haha!

Then next day went to DISNEYLANDD!!! i so happy sia go there.

i dont know why. But b4 we went HK i told my mom i dont care i wanna go disneyland.

heheheeh. i seriously damn happy when we reach disneyland.

Got this roller coaster we took, i go bring my camera in sia. Crazy i know! ahhaha

It's in the dark. So you cant see but it's quite scary.

I came out with tears in my eyes.

I choose to believe that because of the strong wind that gushed across my face thats why got tears!

hahahahaha! then got another buzz lightyear game. its like shoot2 game. but u can control ur seat. damn cool!!

then can turn 360 degrees ard and shoot the person behind u.

i shot my parents and sis all! damn fun sia!!

we were there from 12noon till 8pm. ahhahahah.

it was snowing there, at night. damn awesome!

The next day we went madamme tusauds. Damn fun there.

took lots lots lots of photos there. By the disneyland day, my 8gb memory card full sia.

so next day went to go get a new one. hahaha!

I remember in the peak tram the 3 of us sit together. then my bro kepy pushing me

coz he want to sleep. Then i shout at him "excuse me,this is not a place for comfort and not a

place for you to sleep so stop pushing me!" then they all kept laughing. hahahaha!!

it's good to be somewhere NO ONE KNOWS YOU! hahahhaha

and ps ppl in hong kong or shall i say the honkees ahhahahah!!

they love to push. like seriously. 1st day i kena push alot like nobody's business.

first few times i said sorry and they walk off.

so the 2nd day i clever abit. ahhahaha push push then walk away.

got one time this lady push me. there was no one around. empty space and she just had to was near me! she push me. I stop, I stare at her. then she stop and stare at me.

it was like a minute of us staring at each other. Then she walk away. Wah piang!

Then my sis was laughing2 at the back coz she say from the back it's so obvious she push me

but want make it like my fault. hahahaha!

By the 3rd day I was so pro in pushing ppl alrd. I kept pushing everyone at disneyland. hahaha!

The whole trip there, me and bro kept punching each other. From the time we land till we reach spore. I dont know how many times i've kena punched and how many times i punch him alrd.

hahahah! when he's not available i punch my dad. hahahah!

At first when i punch him i'd say "I punch you to tell myself this is not a dream" haha!

then i wld say "When i happy i punch you" hahahahah!!

and then he wld punch me back like no body's business. ahahhaha!

i wld disturb him the whole trip. and when he start to talk bitchy i wld call him "dare"

throughout the whole trip! ahhahahaha damn funny.

got one time my sis disturb me, then i tell her if she continue i'd punch her. she didnt believe,

so yeah, she kena punch by me. then she was like "eh sakit la. seriously" then run away. hahahaha

now she dont dare disturb. hahahahah!

got one day, we were walking2 shopping.

then as usual, me and bro punching each other.

So we went into loius vuittion coz mummy wanna buy smth and the LV there damn huge sia!!

ard 3/4 floors. So i kept disturbing bro and he was punching me.

This i run down this alley and shouted "MONSTERR!!" and point to my bro.

then everyone kept looking at my bro. hahahhaha!! that was dam funny!

mom kept telling everyone that i very naughty this trip. hahahaha!

I think this trip made them realise how michievious I am. ahahhhahah!

michievious also, still get everything i want. hahahaha

oh yah i didnt get a kate spade beg. cldnt find the shop.

so instead i bought a coach beg. can lah hor. oh yah and burberry. :)

So on the plane back.. we were late. HAHAHAHHA!

supposed to check in by 7.30pm.. we reach ard 7.50pm.

coz we were shopping there.

then come in alrd.. sleep lah.

dad was at the side, near to mom. bro beside dad. i beside bro and sis beside me.

so sleep alrd. then kena woken up to eat. i see the food alrd i no appetite. so wanted to continue back sleeping but guess what??

GOT TURBULANCE!! like urgh.

it was really dizzy. the plane kept moving up down and i could felt the pressure.

the meds i eat didnt help at all!

everyone was asked to buckle up even the stewardess. coz they said the turbulance was terrible.

i started feeling nauseus and felt myself hot and cold.

I started perspiring till the point i could hold on anymore.

My dad, sis and bro gave me their paper bags and I vomit.

Yeap, i did vomit. My bro was like "tahan..tahan.." but i cldnt anymore.

I was perspiring madly. So after i vomit till the bag was full. I thought it was done but...

then i vomit again. this time everything came out. But i was not in time to get the beg.

so there you go, i vomit all over my tray of food. it was everywhere.

there was also a handful on my hand as i try to stop it out.

It was like a living nightmare for me. I felt super terrible.

I felt like dying.

Bro and sis gave me lots and lots of tissues and then we waited for the seatbelt sign to go off

then daddy cleared the vomit for me. and i went to the toilet to clean myself and

yeap i did felt refreshed.

after that i felt okay but bro and sis got headache but i kept disturbing them hahahahhaha!

then i slept. all the way.

so that's my holiday.

Now, we're alrd thinking of another place to go next year. yeahh!
ok bye.

love,

feeza.monjeng

always & forever

& Bye Singapore!

2010-12-18T04:55:00.000-08:00

o fabsz, thank you. For everything, actually.

You guys have been a big part of my life for 5years and 3years respectively.

I know there are ups and downs and I also know that I have never stopped talking

and crapping and making ridiculous jokes non stop.

I hope that when I'm gone, you guys will remember those jokes and laugh.

Just like I will.

This is not goodbye. I promise you that. I will come back and visit you guys someday.

I'm not gonna be far away.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

WEIIII APER LU MEREPEK GIRL??!!!

LU GI HISAP PUTENG SUDAA!

hgahahhahahaha.tkde link

aku bored actually,

tk tahu nk tido atau tidak sbb by 5 plus da kene kluar.

kekekeke.

Anw, thanks for the surprise bday bash tadi.

I am really touched. I shed tears for you all you know!! hahahaha.

I don't know ah. It's either im super touched with all the wishes and gifts this year..

or that I have gotten soft-hearted and weaker.

Hmmm...i choose to believe that i am just touched. kekeke.

But i am touched. Really,

although dunno who blind fold me until my nose penyek.

Dunno who make me fall at the staircase.

Dunno who make me crawl on the pavement.

Dunno who keep pushing me.

Dunno who go smash one whole cake into my face.

Dunno who kept laughing when im all stinky and full of cake. Ahahaha!!

(this refers not only to fabsz!) haha

But honestly, thanks.

Lain kali warning dulu eh, so aku tk pki make up! hahahah!

Guess i'm the only one who ever kene smashed the cake until like that eh.

Tk pe korang. Lain kali aku tk kasi chance. hahahahha!!

SO yeah, leaving spore in a few hours time.

Although I really much want to go to band's pop and all

I really feel like i need to get out of spore. for a while la horr.

Zim oso going tanjong pagar mah! ahahhahahhahah k dah.

So yeah, i also hope i have a safe flight. If u see news got plane move from side to side ..

means what???

I teach u all before. hahahhahah!

means everyone inside tgh zikir! ahahhaha

If u see a chicken moving upwards means what??

Chicken Rise!!!

hahahahahhah tkde link! but tkpe.

oklah, aku nk kasi gjp tido.

kene popok dier. HAHAHHAHAH!!

ok see you guys soon.

Take care.

Sayang korg. Muah!

Love,

feeza monjeng

always & forever

&upset

2010-10-06T22:15:00.000-07:00

when i let you go one step further,my eyes overflowed with tears.

when you walk one step further, more tears are falling.

As you move to a place where i cant reach you, even if i reach out my hand.

I cant reach you, i can only cry.

What should i do? What should i do?

You're leaving.

What should i do? What should i do?

you are leaving me.

I love you. I love you.

I cry out to you.

But you cant hear me because i am only shouting in my heart.

Upset, so very upset.

Love,

monjeng

always & forever

&dillema

2010-10-06T10:00:00.000-07:00

have you ever had that kind of feeling?
where you like A alot alot for many years now. and A is the best.
seriously, A is the best. hahahaha.
but in the past few months B has been catching your eyes.
you have been with B for a few times and you like B alot.
But obviously you still want A.

so there are things you do eg thing NO 1 which totally reminds you of B.
really reminds you alot of B. and even when you watch tv NO 2,
it also reminds you of B.
Most things remind you of B. But when have to choose,
you just choose A. over and over again.
This has happened alooot of times.

Each time you do those things you say.. okay i want B.
i make sure. B B B. not A A A.
but yet again when have to choose, you will choose A.
its very depressing right?

i mean, you do EVERYTHING but NOTHING reminds you of A.
yet again you will ALWAYS choose A.
and you will let B one side, and dissapoint B over and over again.
Sigh, what should i do people?

*drum rolls*

In this case .....
A is McSpicy
B is Quater Pounder
No 1 is skyburger
No 2 is watch spongebob .. krabby patty.

What should i do?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

MONJENG OUTS!

&F1 ROCKS!

2010-09-26T23:45:00.000-07:00

F1 2010,saturday.

superbly awesome!!

serious. reached marina around 3plus, went to rip curl to get a new flip flops.

coz i was wearing pumps and i didnt want to get my pumps dirty.

since it was raining and probably muddy.

went to get coffee first at starbucks then went in around 4plus.

walked to the grandstand. and as we get closer, it was super super loud.

can barely hear if we talk.

plug in the given ear plugs and its still loud! but better abit uh.

not so piercing. its damn loud uh!

got a seat and watch them practice.

got one car somesort terpusing at my area there time practice.

hahahahah tros smue org diri and amek gambar. hahahahah!

the atmosphere is great uh!

then walked to padang. watched daughtry.

managed to squeeze to the front.

his voice is damn nice. serious. so so sexayyyy.

he has a really really good voice!

then walked back to grandstand and watched them practice again.

throat getting dry from all the shouting.

and the drinks there is damn expensive!

serious. like woah. but since so thirsthy.. so hentam je ah!

headed to marina around 8 to get dinner at breeks.

was not satisfied with my food. but its ok, wont go there again.

but the service there is good.

went straight to padang at 9plus.

went to camp out there and sit there.

instead of watching the qualifying rounds at the grandstand,

we sat at padang and watched at the big screen there.

its okay, as long as we were front row to see adam!

damn worth it.

coz adam lambert was awesome!!!

im serious. he is hot, he sings well, he dance well.

he was so good ah. hahahhaha.

and i find his bass guitarist damn hot. serious.

maybe its the hair uh? i tend to like those kind of hair. but still... hot hot.

ended the night pretty satisfied.

tho reach home ard 2am. damn damn tired.

body aching, limping home. barely could walk,

woke up next day with bad bad headache and sore throat..

totally worth it.

and tomorrow,

tomorrow will be great.

coz tmr is our time again.

tmr we will have fun again.

tmr we will be the happiest people around.

tmr we will play lots of things.

and after tmr i dont have to.....

USE THAT HELLO KITTY WALLET AGAIN!

hahahahhahah

inside joke.

bye!

actually the real reason i wanna blog is not bcos of this.

its bcoz of some other things.

but its ok, next time. shall not kill the mood for tmr!

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&crazy

2010-09-24T02:07:00.000-07:00

hell yeah.
so i got a job opportunity at the greatest hotel for f1 and the best job scope.
conrad hotel and amber lounge.
but..i turned it down. ppl tell me work at amber lounge can get tips up to 300bucks.
i've experienced similar when i worked at rws. but wow right.
people say if you say no to something, better things will come your way.

which is why instead of working for f1, i am going to watch the race and concert.
yeapp. it would be legendary!

so have i mentioned that i'm awesome?
oh what's that?
its very obvious?
awww that's so sweet.
laptop-5. *this is where you hi-5 with your laptop screen.

awh crap its the crazy sickness again.
damn i should stop talking.
hahahahhah!!
or maybe just not blog during times like this.
but i really want macd bfast now now now.
guess i'll have to wait till the morning.
so there you have it,

thank you.

hope you enjoyed the show.

ove,

monjeng

always & forever

p.s i think i'm really going crazy.

&thank you

2010-09-23T23:40:00.000-07:00

thanks for clearing up.

22 september 2010.

my first thought this morning was ‘i feel okay’. you know what i mean-that
moment before you remember who you are and what the actual facts of your
life are? my first thought, in my gut, in my body, was ‘i feel okay’. i
haven’t felt that in a long time. usually, you know, i open my eyes and i
already feel like shit. like in my sleep i was feeling like shit, and
waking up was just an extension of that, you know? but this morning, my
first thought was ‘i feel okay’. as if my body wasn’t, you know, housing
any more sadness.

you know when people say communication is very important to clear
any misunderstandings or unhapiness. i think it's really true.
and i doesnt matter if the beginning both seems unhappy with each other,
or maybe one. but talking, and giving in really helps to clear the air.

oh yea did i mention about jive camp? it was superb. im serious.
the few hours before we go home there was a mass captain's ball game at agora.
so my team made it to finals. like cool. and we had to fight with a damn rough team.
the planners was like "they are very rough. so you can decide to just play or back out,
bt have to be careful". so we played. like durh. who doesnt love a challenge.

and i tell you they are damn rough. im serious. i feel like kicking their asses.
oh yea my team super gerek. we all know each other coz we are class neighbours! hahaha!
so one of my team members hidung kene tumbok and berdarah.
another 2, their knees were bleeding.
funny story was, i was the goal keeper. then i catch the ball already,got this girl run up to me
go scratch my hand and pull me down from the high chair.
i was super pissed. she fell down to the floor,
i went to her and wanted to punch her. im serious, i was like in the "ready" position alrd.
hands ready all. then she was like covering her face so i just walk away,
hhaahahahha they all kept laughing coz they didnt expect me to want to punch her.

but seriously ah. play so rough for what. still lose.
hahahaha! we won. coz we're aweeeesome. our team name, PANAS!
so yeah i was really really tired the 2nd day. maybe thats why,
seriously damn damn tired. watched "the last song" with peishan at 2am.
coz i downloaded it and put at my iphone4. so watch, half way i knock out. hahahhha!
woke up in the middle of the night and she also sleeping. beside me.
hahahahaha! so when im tired, damn damn tired till cannot help it already
i just stop being tired and go crazy. im serious. no joke, true story. haha!

so when i go crazy, obviously i do things without thinking. like reckless things.
which probably explains why i wanted to punch the girl. hahahaha!
and also why silly texts are sent. like seriously ah.
especially at night or earlyyy morning, msg me at night and you will get replies full of crap.
or for that matter if those i sent at night really w/o thinking one.
so if wanna text me, msg me at maybe.... 11am onwards?
yea those are my "sane" moments. hahahahaha!
guess i have to be? since i'll be in class most of those times.

oh yea did i mention gjp has been real sweet lately?
every day he would ask me hows my day. yda yda yda,
and he even joined me and the girls ytd. like wow right.
he's usually so busy but ytd he joined us. and it was the best night ever.
he's my awesome guy.

am i crapping again?
hahahahhaha bye.

love,
monjeng
always & forver

&Time and keeping busy.

2010-09-14T23:59:00.000-07:00

its typical right?

when someone tells you to do something you always dont. or do it only to please them.

when they stopped caring then you think of how good and "well-behaved" you could have been.

sigh.

life.

so i read this at the book the other day;

"Time and whisky and keeping busy. You have to keep busy. Dont stop. It doesn't really matter

what you're doing, just do it the best you can and the hardest you can.

Yup, you have to find ways of filling the time. When the person i cared for left i spent the first few months waiting for time to go by. Every morning i'd wake early, and i was looking out over the day and it was a desert. It stretched ahead with nothing in it except flatness and grief, and i

didnt know how to get across it. I didnt even think to call it grieving - all i know was that now i

had to get on with it on my own. One day and then the next and the next. All the things you do

together and take for granted. Silly jokes. Getting on with little things together. Making

arrangements, then breaking them. Even the little squabbles are part of it. When all that goes,

there's this great big space you have to fill up. And not just with memories and tears.

Chocolate, whisky, long hot baths and keeping busy. "

So UT's over. Like finally.

But honestly, i didnt even study.

Yeap, not even abit. Ok maybe OB abit only. Heh.

I honestly alrd told my parents i dont wangt to study for it,

So there's no one else who would scold me. So for wad study. Ha-Ha.

So i was thinking of going on a holiday.

I mean, just go somewhere alone just away from singapore.

I was thinking about Genting. I've been really wanting to go there.

We were supposed to go there. WERE.

Or maybe Port Dickson. So long never go there liao.

Or was thinking Macau.. I've never been there.

Or Bali. I love the beach there. Awesomely beautiful. Can surf there. but i've been there alrd.

Just this year i managed to save almost 3K,and now i really feel like going for holiday.

Its like, i deserve at least some time away loh.

End of the year too long, cant wait.

But mom kept saying my savings can buy car. But car? got enough alrd lah.

I really really reallyyyyyy wanna just leave.

I gt check for flights and hotels online. mmmm

My sis also said she wanna stay at my 2nd house to study.

Then she ask me accompany her.

So i told my mom, if want i can accompany her but she must leave 1 car there for me.

So i can go out buy food for the 2 of us. She say she dont mind.

But there like..very quiet leh. And dangerous?

Or worst come to worst i go back "hometown".

There at least got family members to accompany me.

I dont mind that too. Sigh.

See how loh.

Can i just sleep? Like for a looooonnnnggg time.

"Today I am the saddest ray of sunlight floating on the ocean waves
and the city skies.
When you have run out of words to describe how and why your heart is aching,
and you only want to keep sleeping sleeping sleeping and wake up only when
a definite end is there, what do you do?
Today my heart is heavy and shadowed and not even the clarity of water can
make me come out and shine bright, with hands held high. No, today I hide
under the covers."

So raya.. hmm pretty much the same. Ok no, abit different. Abit only.
This year we talk alot about.......... marraige.
i know funny right?
And from last time, i dunno how many years back alot of people say i will be the first to get married among my siblings.
Like... me??!! MARRAIGE??!! hahaha!

tsk, i'm a very career-focused woman. cheh!
in the future lah. hahaha!
i already got my future planned out.. in 5mins. hahaha!

No matter how i try, i can't stop.
No, im not a robot.
Close your eyes, Smile more often then..
"terimelah kenyataan itu sekurang-kurangnya dia pernah membahagiakan saya"

Love,
Monjeng
always & forever

& busy again!

2010-09-05T01:25:00.000-07:00

bunga api with the girls. best time. :)

so yeah. let's talk about teacher's day.

was brought to esplanade to watch "fried rice paradice".

part of the day's plan. it was aweeesome uh.

like seriously. taufik was great, the rest were equally amazing too.

like serious, it was super funny lah.

no joke. i was laughing throughout the musical.

it is a really must watch.

taufik is exceptionally thin now la. like serious,

compared to the first time i met him face to face which was 6 years ago.

tsk. cite lame sak 6 yrs ago. hahahaha!

so yeah, the bus trip there exceptionally noisy full with laughters.

super gerek lah they all.

i forgot how funny they all were. haha.

trip back all tired liao. hahaha!

went back to get the car.

a collegue saw me getting into the car to drive and she was like,

"wah got licence alrd!". aku haha je.

so head to vivo to break fast with parents.

daddy's been having alot of work to do. so we had to be very understanding.

was eating then suddenly 2 girls came to our table and was like

"hi cher.. happy teacher's day!!" and eyes was watery.

aku pikir dier ckp kat aku. hahahhaha k no. kidding!

they say to my mom lah obviously,

surprisingly, they are also in rp year 2. haha!

funny eh.. my mom nye student is same school with me.

ha-ha k no. not funny.

so lately like aloooooooot and seriously alooooot of people have been asking me same qn.

"are you malay?"

"you not malay right?"

"you dont look malay"

seriously alot. everyday at work there would be at least 2 of that qn.

there's this even malay collegue, she talk to EVERYONEE in malay.

but when me, she talk in english. like wierd leh.

coz she didnt know. sigh.

then the bdk will also ask if i'm malay or not.

yg klakar lagi soalan ni "cikgu pelakon eh? muke cm pena nampak kat tv"

mak kauuu. tkle angsstt sak. tu qn sumpah cmi sia. hahahahha!!

and not only one ask me that. quite a few. hahahaha!!

klakar lah bdk2 ni.

another one was at school. when i went to study OB, got this random girl

my faci's student.. she ask "erm are you malay?"

i look at her and was like durh.

another one was the row thingy. my driver and me were talking2.

then dier tny bout skola and all uh. dier tny "so dpt mendaki nye subsidy?"

i was like "errr.... tak. sbb im not malay"

dier mcm "oh beh u ape?"

hahaha!! i was like "im mixed blood"

sigh.

palling power was when i went to peishan's shop and her manager said

i look like eurasian. HAHAHAHHA!!!

tu lagi tkle make it sak!! EURASIAN??!! ah gi mampos.

hahahahhaha!

so yeah wed went to geylang again!

my sis didnt want to follow actually she say nk "belajar".

i got irritated i scold her..

"you jgn nk ckp u nk blajar ok. sbb you and i both know that's not what you've been doing.

and trust me, I KNOW what you've been doing. i see it everyday.

you ckp nk bljr but you tak akan. and you know it too. so u just diam and ikot!"

hahahhaha. my mom look at me with shocked eyes and was like

"wahh.. garangnye cikgu!" hahahhaha.

so yeah, went to buka with the girls on friday. it was awesome.

time with them is always awesome.

lepak first. and now got new baby to hang around with.

super cute, i dunno how to spell his name. hahaha michael? malay version.

hahahahhaha!! went to eat the lepak2 and play with bunga api.

it was so fun. serious. esp biler bole kacau org takot dgn api. hahahhaha!!

then we played this korean game. hahahah!! funny sia.

the funny part of that night was of course ain's part.

hahahhahaha!! damn damn funny sia that one.

i wont forget. ahhahaha!

so today woke up damn early. dread to go there.

i seriously swear i almost didnt go.

i only got like 3 hours of sleep. buay tahan.

so meet peishan. and stupid mrt got disruption whole day.

then met the rest there.

in the bus to the ite we saw this bapok. the funny thing is,

the lips of "her" is super super thick. i think 10 times of angelina jolie.

IM NOT KIDDING!! serious swear. and "she" wore thick pink lipstick.

make it even more obvious. i cannot stop laughing man. hahahhah!!

when we got off the bus "she" stare at us sia. ahhaha! scared kena beat! ahahhahaha

i'm not gonna update much about the actual ROW thingy

coz i'm super dissapointed with the management committee.

super messy. everything is super messy. not organised well.

and we didnt even know what the hell we supposed to do.

just hop in car and drive2 around.

stupid shit. damn dissapointed.

this is my most "cobaan" day of the whole fasting month.

serious. by 11 i was alrd hungry and throat damn dry coz need talk alot mah.

each time i get into the car mate cm nk tido, but kene entertain them lah.

the worst part is, while we were at giant shopping there..

this whole stack of beras fell on my body. and like urgh.

damn pain siallllllllllllll.

coz i was protecting the girl, one of the family members. then aku plak kene.

cheeeeken. my hand and body hurt from then on.

all the way till now.

da badan aku tgh sakit. lps tu aku kene angkat the whole carton of drinks.

u know the 12 fnn bottles. ahhh. walauweh.

nasib tgh puase, tu psl bnyk2 sabar.

and then da la the timing all so messy. swear its all damn messy.

i didnt get to get back to the campus on time.

reach there ard 7.45, fed up alrd. no more food.

went city hall and eat the them.

and at 9pm then i got to break my fast. sigh.

i feel like fainting. it was really sucha challenging day for me.

on the other hand, while leaving campus to giant..

goh chok tong went to look into my car and wave at me.

hehehhehe. happppppy. hahaha!

he's our idol! woooo. hahahahhaha!!

but okla the whole thing quite fun.

but they should plan properly nxt time.

on the brighter note, i terserempak with my aunties and cousins kat giant!

hahahahah happy much!!

first thing she say was "eh? u tk ikot diorg gi holiday?"

hahahahhaha. wah i wish i was shopping with them instead. but its okay,

seeing them makes me smile. tros pelok2. hahahahha.

cant wait to see them on the 10th! woooooo.

me and the other 4 were so unhappy with today that..

we decided to make our own 5pm next year.

but then aft that change to 4am. hahahahha!

and we have our new debut single "shut up and sit down"

hahahahhha!! inside joke sia. but super damn funny.

imagine us singing "shut up and sit down" with the "shut up and drive" tune at mac.

hahahahah!

gonna miss them. sigh.

ok ut3 on monday.

and im gonna bull the crap my way through the ut.

hhahahahha. i got study lah. of coz.

but been so busy with work and everything else. i feel like not enough.

nvm, this is what they get for putting ut same week with raye.

and i dunno why these few days i keep on kempunan chicken rice.

serious.

mane nk dpt nasi ayam kul 1.30 pagi? hahahahha!!

bapak ku tkde nk carik kn. sigh.

carik sendiri uh. lapaaaa.

bye!

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&67 days

2010-09-03T02:30:00.000-07:00

it took marshall 67 days.
67 days to forget lily. well, not actually forget.
but for him to be sane again.
when lily just suddenly walk out on him..he was in a mess.
took him 67 days.

i cant wait for puasa to be over.
i'm so tired of fasting.
really. i get tired easily when im fasting.
no work gets done. sigh.
been busy.

shall have a proper update soon.
other than that, meeting them lovelies tomolo. yay!

love,
monjeng
always & forever

& extremely exhausted

2010-08-31T01:45:00.000-07:00

this was the night that kluar with them and lupe nak balik. hahaha!

look at her hair. like zomggg. urgghh

geram seh tengok rambot dier. i mean.. the colour lah.

why why why.

i'll probably head to the salon before raya. like durh.

cm ritual eh. every year i think i go salon at least 3 times to dye my hair.

tsk. i need to botak my hair i think.

so yeah the other day i was in the chev car.

and my bro was in the cherato forte. and we both were like ramming the engine.

hahahaha! kinda funny. my sis was standing in the middle of both cars.

and she was shouting "can you both stop ramming the engine??!"

its like we gonna race gitu. both ramming the engine.

sbb he makin kuat thats why i also makin step on the pedal. haha.

so lately have been keeping busy. yeap, thats what the book said.

"to keep myself busy"

but damn studies is really sucha bore.

so to keep myself busy, i have done 4 kuih raya. yippee.

i waited and waited but all so busy so i do myself.

1st is durh kuih conflakes. standard uh.

the other 3 is a new recipe i tried from a book. one of it quite hard.

so yeah. nk try dtg rumah lah k.

hahaha.

i've been really really tired lately.

sleep at prob 2 or 3am everyday doing practically nothing

and wake up at 6am for work. imagine.

i feel like dying.

is this considered keeping busy? ok then.

i need a holiday. i mean, literally holiday.

going back there is not enough, not counted too.

i wanna go somewhere else. sigh.

i think i wanna travel alone. like a cool only.

i wanna write bout my work experience but lazy uh.

next time. hahaha.

just that alot of people tegor me lately, when i was there.

they all was like "wah you look so different!"

"the last time i saw u was when u were so small"

"wah last time hair so short now so long alrd ah"

"wah u look so mature"

yda yda yda. ya i know, when i was younger im always there mah.

grew up there. hahaha!

i find it extremely tiring that everyday i have to wear formal.

and its so hot lately. like urgh.

lucky my cupboard has alot of formal wear.

ok dah lah bye lah.

i should really start studying.

but sorry i seriously cannot be bothered.

no motivation. bye.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&happy birthday

2010-08-24T00:40:00.000-07:00

yeah, this was when we 3 were small. yes, we all had the same hairstyle.
yes, we all look like boy. but now all different! hahahaha.
think you shld know who is who yea.

she said "the most annoying fatty in my life" haha!

"high wave and low wave"

now.

3 years ago.

so yeah let me say to my sis, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
kau da tue okay. hahahah. so yeah.
you must be guessing why i put that pic just above here. the angelina jolie.
so the story goes..
hahahahha.

sunday.. i was sleeping. as usual lah im always the last to wake up.
but in between my sleep i heard alot of commotion. but i still tido mati. haha!
so when i woke up, my sis was sitting by my bed there.. with her back facing me.
then my dad walked into my room i asked him.. "so we gonna buka outside?"
then he said "macam mane nk buka outside. kakak you sakit. tgk si goldfish ni!"
at that point my sis turn to look at me slowly..
i look at her. then at her mouth and on the spot i laugh like a mad woman.
imagine, just woke up still half asleep.. see her then straight away laugh.
hahahahah!! and trust me i'm still laughing now.
her mouth was really like goldfish. like.. swollen like that.
i didnt even bother finding out what happen. i just laugh and laugh non stop.

so when i was fully awake, she told me she went doct in the morning.
doct said its an allergic reaction. smth she ate. its like.. she develop an allergy.
i was like woah. finally someone else got allergy!
if not im the only one in this family who got allergy.
so the whole day her mouth like angelina jolie like that.

since tgh puase kn.. so tkle kacau. buka aje.. hahahhaha!

me and my bro and my mom non stop kacau dier.

standurd uh. confirm kene kacau nye. hahahah! it was so funny sia. like seriously.

seriously like goldfish. hahahhah!!

i wanted take pic. but obviously she didnt allow. haha!

when we tgh terawih at one point me and my bro just turn to look at her,

then we both burst out laughing.

hahahhahha!!

but anyhoos, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAKAK.

i will forever be your annoying adik who will always bring laughter to the family ok.

and yea now she calls me "pau".

and yes kakak, start earning some money after your As okay.

you have $0 cpf. haha! "if you die you are of no significance to the family."

i told her that the other day! hahahahaha.

see like me, my savings mama say can buy car alrd. u goldfish! haha.

so yeah, did i mention the other day got car accident?

yeap.. was driving at tamp area there meeting the family for buka.

then go isi minyak, then poooott kene bmw.

but its not bmw yg kene terok its kite nye.

tsk, depan kemek and number plate stengah pecah. rabak pe.

hahahahha. my mom was like super pissed loh. haha.

drive ntah keja ape je. hahahaha.

but next morning alrd send for repair.

ok dah. tmrw work. bye!

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& Happy?

2010-08-22T02:00:00.000-07:00

15th week of school, during science lesson since christian is our mentor..

he made us write post its for everyone and give them.

he gave us each a file to put the post its in. as usual, we wont do ppt.

science always slack mah. so we did post its for everyone instead.

In my file it says..;

Vikki - Dear Hafiza, though you are 3 years younger than me, I had lots of fun with you.

You have been a good fren. Thanx for eveything! Love you.

Peiting - PPL! It's lucky to have known each and everyone of you! Though we are

seperating alrd. But BEST WISHES for the future! Let's make a happy ending!

WXY - Hafiza, you and vicky always brightens up my day!

Xiuling - You are such a great friend and teammate. ESP OB MODULE. you are so

hardworking. hehs. Yes, meet up soon. Keep each other update uhs!

Vanessa - Feeza, Your laughter always make me laugh. Stay cheerful babe! All the best!

Like the way you scold **** sia !! haha!

Jar - Hi baby! You horny vulgar piece of shit. All our inside joke will not be forgotten

by me. "PAP" for eg! LOL. Our time at singfest! Wow.. Time flies! I will miss you for

sure, darling. I love you! Stay Happy!

Sornah - Hey hey, Oi! Thanks for the surprise today. You really got me this time. Haha..

Thanks for making all of us laugh even on our worst days.

Weiting - Yo pizza! I knew you're one of us in Hi-5 for our 1st day of class. you were a

great friend and bring laughter in class! see you again soon!

Davina - Hafiza! It's so good knowing you more and we're classmate! is a fun time with

you around and of course, you're a great friend. See you in band and stay in contact!

friend's forever!

Haqim - Dear feeza, you have been a great friend and classmate too. I wish you all the best in your future. Hope to keep in touch ok.

Fuyen - Feeza, Saya suka mata awak. Awak cantik sangat. Ps, nakal juga. hehe! Ms honeydew Nice to meet you! Take care my kawan.

Jessica - Hello the most cheerful girl in the class! Love your humour! Ho me yah!

Alamaks write messy messy. Hope you stay happy okay! I know that you facing some

ups and downs. But remember, you always gt your friends and w45k to be beside you!

Peishan - Hello feeza baby! I am glad to have met sucha awesome person like you!

Remember that there is more to life and it will be full of excitement. I will be here whenever

you need help! Study hard for your future sememters! Cya around next time! Keep in

contact! Dont flirt with new classmates. If not..

Wow.. I miss my class man. i miss w45k alot. Can rp not make us change class?

Aiyah. Sucks man.

So yeah, went to buy new phone on thurs. Hmm... i hope to last with this phone.

Coz my sis was saying that I have never used a phone longer than 1yr.

My previous phone, was a gift from dad for my o lvl results. Use 7mths then change. haha!

I really hope i can last with this phone.

So at home at night, handed my dad $600 in cold hard cash for the phone.

Wah, heart pain. But this is my first phone i buy using my own money.

Nvm, the feeling of contentment is there!

That day, went to buka with lovelies. Its like dunno eh everytime we meet always talk non stop!

hahahaha! Buka feast seh! Smue makan smp da tkle jalan. haha!

And tu tempat cm kite nye. Ketawe non stop sekuat-kuat hati!

hahahaha! Syg korg lah. haha!

Then went lepak2 awhile and borak2. Ntah mcm mane boleh story cite hantu plak.

Alamak. Da malam jumaat. haha! Aku dala penakut. haha!

And they got to godeh2 my new phone first hand. haha!

So went to geylang with family on friday.

Da buka, da makan cm oink oink then jalan2 kat joo chiat jap.

Then nampak kedai kopi lagi.. ahh makan lagi. Hahaha!

Rabak i know! Hahaha. Wah terok seh. Everytime buka i will not chew, i gobble.

Case btol2 cm babi gitu uh. Da makan, mcm nk tido plak. Hahaha!

but no kene terawih. haha!

So da mkn 2nd round, jalan2 lagi. terserempak with my aunts and cuzzins and their anak..

My cousin nye hubby said to my sis "dier ni nye fb emo2 seh status. I tried to put it all

up into a big story. but cannot uh.. Too confusing!"

Aku "hahaha!" aje! hahahha.

Then went to carpet shop. Buy 2 carpet for me and sis's room.

Then went to the fotohi auction thingy outside Tanjong katong complex.

Stood there for 30mins eh.. My dad cm happy hour gitu.

He bought 5 carpets there. Can u imagine??

But its lawa lah, no doubt. Coz it's an auction thingy so quite fun uh.

I will geletek my dad to make him raise his hand. hahah!!

He spend more than 1k just on carpet. Tsk.

Inilah akibatnye ade 2 rumah.

Speaking of which, this year is the first year we ber-raya with..

2 house and 2 cars. Wah.. bnyk kene berkemas lah ni.

So yeah then after that me sis and mom went to buy some food then went home with one car.

And the guys settle the 7 carpets with another car. Haha!

I think my dad went home very happy hor.

I dunno wad else to say.

OK Bye!

Love,

monjeng

always & forever

&busy

2010-08-18T23:35:00.000-07:00

so today i brought a book to read at work.
Title : "The moment you were gone" by Nicci Gerrard

In just half a day, i managed to read till chapter 9. Amazing or wad.
pg 112...

"Why have i come?" She turned back to face Nancy. "WHy? To be honest,
I've no fucking idea. Not really, not the way you mean. I just suddenly found
I had to. I didnt want you to fade to a distant memory and not to matter
anymore. I wanted you to matter, dont you see? I wanted to hurt about it,
even though I should have grown up by now and accepted that it was all so
long ago when I was a foolish young woman. I'm foolish middle-aged woman
now and I dont want time to heal everything. I hate that. It's crap. And I
wanted to see if it mattered to you,too. I couldn't bear it if you'd forgotten
about me and us, when all this time I've remembered. I wanted you to hurt,
too. I've been waiting for this day. For this moment."

Its a nice book i shall say. That's all.

So yeah, I quit my job coz I had no mood to work.
Seriously. No joke.
I had that "whatever" mood. So yeah, i quit.
Walked out, went home and sleep.
Mom kept saying "you're so wierd".

I asked her why and she said "I just cant believe you quit just like that"
then i said "if i dont want something,means i dont want"
No point continue when I have no interest.
Which seems to be the same about school. Haiya.

I've been so busy lately. I hate it.
But on the other hand I've been making myself busy.
So all i think about is .. yeah. Work.
Hmm...
Selamat Hari Raya!
Opps. abit too early yea? I think i cant wait uh.
Tired uh puasa. I want to eaaatttt. But i alrd lost few kg.
Bye.

Love,
Monjeng
always & forever

&SINGFEST

2010-08-06T23:35:00.000-07:00

SINGFEST 2010!!
fort canning park
day 1

1st : some local band.

2nd : The Like.

3rd: Orianthi

i freaking loveeeeeee her.

4th : Wondergirls.

5th: Tokio Hotel

6th: KATY PERRY

i love herrrr. she soooo hot. and gerek.

one of the best nights everrrrrr.

left school in a rush,went home to change and grab and go.

reach fort canning ard 4 and queue. we were like so in front. teeheee.

after we went in, there was this big gate where would lead us to the big stage.

so when the gate open, i pull J's hand and run down the flight of stairs and down the hill.

hahahhahaha. i seriously like want to roll down. serious shits.

i cant even control myself. my legs just run and run non stop.

so yeah.. the concert started at 6pm.

obviously it's a most pit. and everyone was mosh-ing and grind-ing like mad.

it was fun lah. singing along and just jumping around.

be hyper. hahaha!

and omgggg. i seriously love orianthi la siaaaaa.

firstly, she is pretty. but most importantly, she is super super good on the guitar.

LIKE OMG. serious sia. i see her play,my mouth hanging. hahahah!

and amazingly, when i raise up my hand..

she throw her pick at me. LIKE WOW!!

i was super shocked sia. she was playing2 then she throw at me.

i put her pick in a special ring-like box.

im gonna keep forever sia!! got her name u know!

i wanna play the guitar like her then i use her pick and play for you k. hehe.

tokio hotel was super good also.

the lead singer super cute can? hahahha.

super duper cute. and they had fire all come out..

we were standing like directly infront.. we front row.

so we can seriously feel our face damn hot. hahahhah! but cool loh. got fire all.

then they throw water at us. super fun!

katy perry..no need say lah. she's awesomeeeeee.

she's like super crazy loh. ahhahahha she's damn damn gerek.

and super duper prettyyyyyyy.

buay tahan sia. serious. although we waited for like 1hr for them to prepare her stage..

it was so worth waiting loh.

obviously..it's a mosh pit. people will bump into each other.

people will push push and be unhappy which will result into a fight.

hahahahha!! the people i was with was like super gerek..

fight then fight loh. hahahaha serious fight sia.

so after jumping and screaming our lungs out till 12plus am..

after everything finish when walking up the hill.. then can serious feel the pain.

waaa the leg pain uh... like cannot walk sia.

and super duper thirsty. serious sia.

just grab and drink. cannot tahan liao.

leaving that place was damn hard. its like on top of a hill.

so run down lah! ahhahahhaha.

no need know wad time i reach home...

damn damn late. i know. hahahhaha!

i'd rather stay out then at home and think of something which im not supposed to.

i reach home, i rmbr'ed i still havent do rj.

i was like "how to do rj?? when im in this state?!"

hahahhah! shower then sleep like pig.

as usual, cannot wake up in the morning. durh.

expected la hor.

but seriously, ever since ut2.. i lazy go school alrd.

like no mood go school and no motivation.

after ut 2 everything changed.

i seriously didnt care about school anymore.

aish. sigh sigh sigh.

sometimes, when i feel unmotivated and stressed and worn out and stupid,

i have retarded ideas like wanting to quit school.

Now, there's no one who would scold me if i actually did that.

ok bye.

da smp. nk kluar!

hehehheeh enjoyzzz

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& Story

2010-07-27T01:20:00.000-07:00

And never get tired of hearing that voice,
or seeing those eyes, or having you smile at me.

Here it goes..

"the first time i saw you, i knew i loved you

and you smiled.. because you knew" you said.

however still,

I mean, I don't think I was bad,

but I just wasn't good either.

And maybe that isn't enough.

but..

And when I asked you how you'd been I meant I missed you..

more than i've ever missed anything before.

Main Point :

I start missing you the moment

you untangle yourself from my arms.

Honestly,

I never want to see you unhappy,

I thought you'd want the same for me.

Looking on the bright side,

So.. TODAY..

you are my very first thought in the morning,

and my last when night falls..

for the first time in a long while, i thought about you longer

than just in passing and held onto the thoughts.

it made me wish you were back in my life for a day

or maybe even a weekend.

and i tell myself i am fine and i am surrounded by great people.

and i am. but i see your face and i die a little more inside

every time. i miss you.

i'm glad we had the times together just to laugh and sing a song.

It seems like we just got started and then before you knew it,

the times we had together were gone. Why do all good things come to an end?

I want you to remember the feel of my hair and remember the scent

of my perfume i always wear. Remember my laugh and how sweet we used to be.

Remember the way that you used to love me.

I love the way you can embarrass me with your actions.

I love that it's impossible to change your mind about anything.

I love that the slow songs always seem to make me think of you.

I love that you are unlike any other person on this Earth.

I love that whenever we speak I have no idea what to say or how to feel.

I love how you will always laugh at my every joke.

I love that you changed me forever.

I hate that it hurts whenever I hear your name.

I hate that however hard you tried you could never make a list like this.

I hate that things will never be the same again.

Because I would get down on my knees and tie them for you.

Give yourself a break sometimes.

Be more health conscious.

If ever there is a tomorrow when we're not together,

there is something you must always remember.

You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem,

and smarter than you think.

But the most important thing is, even it we're apart,

I'll always be with you.

Seeing you happy, that means everything to me.

.....

However, we all know there is no goddamn happy endings.

Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned.

They comeinto your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, then leave.

Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apar your ego a little bit,

show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open

so new light can get it, make you so desperate and out of control

that you have to transform you life. And you do.

And when I tell you I love you, I mean that you can make my heart ache

in places deep inside of myself, and at the same time make it sing more beautifully

than can be described. I mean that you can give me life or take it away from me.

You are my complete happiness.

___________________________________________________________________

I want to be there for you, I do. but i can't do this anymore.

I cant keep being your second choice, Not when you're my first.

Sometimes you just have to hold your head up high,

blink away the tears and say goodbye.

It hurts to say goodbye to a person that you almost have your life to,

knowing that life without them, wont be the same.

But it's better to give up the feeling rather than fight, knowing that

you're the only one fighting.

As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you.

All my little plans and schemes, lost like some forgotten dreams,

seems that all I was really doing was waiting for you.

Because your eyes, they tell me more than your words

As long as I still feel something, it's not over.

And believe me sometimes I wish it was, but it;s not.

I can feel it.

Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought,

useless and dissapointing.

That penguin there will still wait without words.

Woah that's quite along post uh.

I think like cool only. I have put up pictures and words

which results in a story. Like fun only.

Should do this again. HA-HA! no way man.

it took me 4 hours to do that okay.

I think when i grow up i can write my own novel. hahaha!

sweet talker ____ ____ mah. haha!

Hmm.. have been having difficulty sleeping nowadays.

Really. LAtely uh.. past few weeks.

Will toss and turn for a few hours, by the time want sleep need wake up.

Thats why now i forever late for school.

Aiya, buay tahan alrd loh. Dont care liao.

Feel so tired of school. No motivation, yet its only yr 1 sem 1.

WAH SIBEI SIAN.

ok bye.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& oto ka jua

2010-07-26T00:05:00.000-07:00

feelingless

Can’t you tell?
I’m not myself
I’m a slow motion accident
Lost in coffee rings and fingerprints
I don’t wanna feel anything but I do
And it all comes back to you

Goodbye is the hardest thing to say to someone who means the world to you,
especially when goodbye isn’t what you want.
Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears
and say goodbye.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& falling slowly

2010-07-25T01:30:00.000-07:00

If it’s over and you’re moving on can you just tell me? please? Sitting
here with my heart aching, my stomach in knots and not knowing what you
want is making me dizzy. If you need to go, I’ll let you go. I will let
you go with kind wishes, good thoughts and my love. The only thing I ever
wanted was to make your life better, like you have done for me.

My life started tumbling down the moment you left,
so cant you see it?
Cant you see why you being in my life is so important?

love,
monjeng
always & forever

& sibei formal

2010-07-24T18:30:00.000-07:00

kinda what i'm feeling. some sort.

and i fall a little further everyday
drowning in the splintering pieces of my broken heart.
i cant breathe..

FORMAL DAY, 23RD JULY 2010

w45k

so yeah. this was what i wore. dont mind my face.

so yeah, week 13. the long awaited week 13 has finally arrived.

faci and everyone have been talking bout week 13 since start of school.

and yea, it has arrived. week 13 = formal week. for communication module.

and too bad that mine is on 1st day of the week. so yea.

everyone was in their business attire. kinda cool. its like playing dress up. haha!

so yeah, in the morning the girls in my class spam toilet. haha!

all want touch up on hair, make up and sorts. during 1st break we didnt even do wsheet.

haha! all was outside taking photos non stop. seriously like fun only.

all the 4 classes was in formal attire. haha! so take photo loh.

for the first time, school seemed so fun. as in..lesson loh. i mean..

k nvm. i dunno wad i talking.

planned to eat somewhere. but didnt coz got no time.

faci booked LR for us from 1pm-3pm. so we had to start earlier.

very rush! when doing ppt.. seriously rush.

then me and some others quickly head down to booklink to buy que cards.

go back up class.. finish up on ppt. write que cards. then head to the LR.

lucky it was our class only. we didnt allow faci to combine with other class.

hahaha! but serious, damn nervous. coz she said this lesson the most impt mah.

went to toilet to touch up he and there. then look in mirror and prac presenting.

damn damn nervous man. dunno why.

its like.. every single day do presentation. but dunno why tat day nervous.

maybe coz its at LR.. i was afraid i would laugh. non stop. hahaha.

reach LR only, settle down. HW pass me the mic and i started singing

"fight for this love" hahahah. i would sing for you if you stayed.

so yeah. presentation was kinda okay i guess?

and yes, i laughed. hahahah!

serene was super cute. she typed "GO GO GO!" at her lappy in huge letters

then showed us her lappy when we presenting. super cute!

but yea, faci said my group was the most professional

in terms of attire and the way we present. so yea can loh. laugh oso nvm. heh.

faci left after that.. so from 2.45pm onwards, the class camwhore ttm in LR.

hahahaha! we on loud2 songs then close the lights and partayyy. haha.

they on LUCIFER then got ring ding dong performance. hahahaa. k no.

when want to go home, change to slippers and dump my heels in my beg.

serious cannot tahan. damn pain my feet.

ok bye. heading outs now.

love,

monjeng

always & forever.

& fml

2010-07-22T00:30:00.000-07:00

but until then, it’s going to hurt.. and you’re going to cry. and it’s
going to continue to be the worst times of your life. and you’re going to
wonder how long it’s going to take. and you will fake that smile until
your face hurts. and you will drink until you forget. and then you will
remember in the morning. and every day, it will hit you like a ton of
bricks. and every night, you will wonder where he is, and what he is
doing,and if he’s thinking about you too. and you will cry, you will cry,
you will cry until you think you’re out of tears. but they will continue
to fall…

i brush my teeth when i am upset. i have not been that hungry lately.
this might not be pretty but i have got to find a way to fight, to beat
the odds,to prove to you that i am worth it. i am learning to keep my
damn mouth shut, to be a quiet thing everyday even though it's eating
me up inside. i will not say a word. i am trying.

couldnt wake up in the morning.
head seriously going boom boom pow. buay tahan,serious.
maybe its becoz of the sudden run and i ran at 1am and shower at 2am?
maybe..?
started with migraine in class. terrible migraine.
then felt my hands getting colder but body getting hotter.
they all say its the after effect of the other day.
but i didnt want to believe so. you still wont be there.

if only tmr (today) wasnt OB, i would not have come. like seriously.
my head seriously mintak ampun alrd.
otw home in the car just now i slept. reach home, throw my beg.
nvr even change clothes. never open my watch.
just like that,i straight away lie in bed and sleep. cnnt tahan sia.
didnt want to wake up,but had to. coz need do rj and OB ppt again!
woke up 9plus and shower and did my work.
but aft sleeping i felt worse. and my temp like shooting up. aish.

maybe this is what i get for purposely trying to make myself busy?
i blame no one but myself.
there's just too many work to do lately, esp OB. hate that module man.

tried to talk to dad but that issue this morning.
but i dunno why.. everytime we reach that topic i cant get myself to say.
all the words are alrd in my mind but it wont come out.
talked to mom bout it in the afternoon.
yet again, my mouth was just hanging open.
the words cant come out. i really feel helpless when in this situation,i'm the middle person.
how long more? i cannot tahan alrd.

everything, everything seriously is called fml.

love,
monjeng
always & forever

& tired.

2010-07-21T07:10:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you need to be alone. Sometimes, you just don’t want to be
comforted. Because you need the chance to take it in. All that has been,
all the pain left behind. The best cure is time on your own to analyze,
time to pull yourself together again and time to see that all you ever
wanted is now nothing but a fading memory. Time to let it go, and time
to start again.

I dont know if today would be good or not.
Or just be as bad as ytd. Maths ytd make everything worse.
i just so tired. so so tired.
Slept at 2plus am after running for 1 hour.
Plug in my music and just run. Non stop.
So tired. So hard to wake up just now.
Wadever Lah.
Life is just so urgh. School is just so urgh.

love,
monjeng
always & forever

& sibei sian

2010-07-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

It’s funny how hello is always accompied with goodbye. It’s funny how
good memories can start to make you cry. It’s funny how forever never
seems to really last. It’s funny how much you’d lose if you forgot about
your past. It’s funny how friends can leave you when you’re down. It’s
funny how when you need someone, they’re never around. It’s funny how
people change and think they’re so much better. It’s funny how many lies
can be packed in one ‘love letter’. It’s funny how people can forgive,
even though they can’t forget. It’s funny how one night can contain so
much regret. It’s funny how ironic life turns out to be. But, the funniest
part of all is that none of this really seems funny to me.

Today was bad. Terrible. Atrocious.
But i think my classmates are all super cute.
and super sweet. At the same time, they all are emotional too.
Ytd and today the class like emo only. We wont look forward to sem 2 maybe?
We've always been there for each other. even for our mentor.
aish.
why is life like this?
why is life so tough??

I try to keep myself busy. like super busy.
There's this OB ppt we have to do before thurs as a group.
And I stupidly volunteer to do the whole ppt by myself. Never even think how hard OB cld be.
But its fine. I want to keep myself busy.
Met up with lovely for awhile aft school. K not awhile. quite long. heh.
Reach home, shower and do OB ppt.. from 9plus until now then finish.
I know i got until tmr.. but still. just gotta make myself busy.
so its done. tmr got after school late lunch appointment. try to drag it.

Today didnt even eat at school. A single thing.
Serious no appetite. But i had padle pop ice cream.
And no, it didnt make me feel like life dont suck.
Dunno wads wrong with my body.
Maybe it's because of the pills too. too much? too little? ah wadever.

And now, I cant sleep.
As in, if i lie down i know i will just stare at the ceiling and think.
So i think im gonna pop in some pills and go for a run.
hmm yes. Maybe after run then i shall sleep? Let's see how!

love,
monjeng
always & forever

& unspeakable

2010-07-19T23:00:00.000-07:00

i felt this today. literally.
i was hungry. but i has no appetite.
i didnt eat at all is school.
all i had was cereal in the morning, packet of biscuit to last the whole day.
urgh. i dunno lah.

*looks convo on top*
hahahahahaha!! ok that was seriously super funny.
we were seriously bored. bored ttm.
me and ps decided to "copy" them. super funny sia.
the whole convo. hahahaha!!

done shopping for formal wear. i think i am ready.
:)

we pestered science faci aka our mentor to put our fav question as rj question.
and he really did. hahahaha! *below*

"What do you want in life?

As a young adult, obviously there are many things that i can possibly want in life. Especially when I am having a hard time, everything about life just seems wrong. It will make me question about life more and more.

I want love to be easy. I want falling in love to be easy where there are no problems and no conflicts. Falling in love, in this case is a general statement where you can fall in love with that special someone, friends or family. I want falling in love to be something which is easy to receive and forget. Where there would be no arguments, no sudden disappearance, no silent treatment and no third party. Where in contrast, heart breaks don’t exist. Where no one would have the heart to make one feel broken. I want saying “ i’m sorry ” able to make things better. I want people to say “i love you” and actually mean it. I want time being able to fix everything and make one forget all the things they don’t want to remember.

I want studies and career to be easy. I want studies easy to get by so that each and everyone of us can get a stable job and not have to worry about the future. Best still, I want money to drop from the sky. So that everyone will be happy.

I want money. Lots and lots so that i can give everyone each whatever amount they want and stop fighting. Since money is always the cause of problems and more problems. I want everyone to able to click with everyone and that there would be no internal conflicts in the world that every single being in this world like each other.

I want my friends to be happy. It’s really saddening when they are upset. Coz when they are upset, I’m upset. These are the people I truly care about.

I want family to actually feel and be like one.

I want there to be no more floods in Singapore. It’s kinda scary. But if the flood can stop school for a month or so, then why not.

I want Singapore to have 4 seasons.

I want a pet rabbit. Mine died when I was small. I still think about it sometimes. Although I have 2 turtle now, I still prefer my rabbit. It’s a really cute white rabbit.

Main Point : I want happiness. That’s the most important thing in life. No money can buy happiness. With happiness and the one you love by your side, even the worst of a life you’re having can seem like the best ever. Happiness is not forever. It changes from time to time, just like people. But i want people NOT to change. All you can ever want is the person you care for to be happy. “ I want you to be happy”.

Cheer Up, faci. Whatever problems you are having since last week, cheer up. There are people around you who would always be there. W45K will be there, and you know that. If not, Tamil Tiger Gang will be there for you.
Cheers. "

longest rj i wrote so far. and the crappiest. haha! i didnt know what i was talking.
i think something wrong with me lately.
i dont know what i talk and do and wear.

talking of which, i wore a skirt to school today.
friends, classmates, faci and myself shocked.
they said i getting wierd by the day. but this was better than friday.
so agree. friday was just.... urgh.

me and B was talking2 just now and suddenly talk bout ghost story.
dunno how can from talk bout work until like that. crap all the way uh. haha.
then suddenly talk bout "mystery jam 12"
aish. i wont forget that time. seriously.
when i was left alone to hear that stupid radio while you slept sooooooo soundly la horrrr.

last night i couldnt sleep. really.
i just stare at the ceiling and stare.
and think and think.
of you and you.
and why and why.
aish. why is life so toughhhh.

there is a sacredness in tears. they are not the mark of weakness,
but of power. they speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.
they are messengers of overwhelming grief.. and unspeakable love.

love,
monjeng
always & forever

& what do you say to taking chances

2010-07-18T22:00:00.000-07:00

i think that's why i have been late for school lately.

like alot. hahahah!

My first thoughts after waking are - and always have been - of you.

katakanlah, mentera apakah

mengobar bara di hatimu.

kau rela korban sebuah asmara

demi merandai perjuanganmu.

love,

monjeng

always & forver

& boom boom pow

2010-07-17T23:00:00.000-07:00

I just need something to happen. I need a sign that things are going to
change. I need a reason to go on. I need some hope. And in the absence
of hope, I need to stay in bed and feel like might die today.

how cute can my baby be. hehe.

woke up today with a terrible headache.

somemore thinking bout where i was supposed to be today.

the problem with me is, when i lack of sleep i wished i can sleep forever.

but when i sleep to long, i wished i hadnt coz i will have headache.

went out and became migraine. seriously needed coffee.

head went "boom boom pow". stopped by starbucks to get coffee.

today i manage to get myself new jeans at mango

and pumps.

was searching for formal wear at topshop,mango,dp,esprit..

but nothing catched my eye. guess i will still stick to g2000.

gotta shop for formal wear quick! coz need wear it this coming week.

wah piang.

a funny convo between me and my mom.

Mom "fiza, one day im gonna let go of this beg okay?" *refers to the sembonia beg i bought for her*

Me *shows sad face* "aiya..ok loh. let it go, if its meant to be..it will come back to you"

Mom *laughs damn loud* "why ur facebook so emo sehhh. i like want write only GET IT OVERR"

Me "haha! emo meh? quotes only mah.. write ah. i dare you. "

i doubt she will write. haha!

lovelies, T.H or M.C soon kays?

friday jgn lupe. heh.

if you think im doing great,

then "great" has become the lowest rank in the hierarchy.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& bad clothes bad hair day

2010-07-16T23:40:00.000-07:00

its an angel. your angel.

i start missing you,

the moment u untangle yourself

from my arms.

Remember all the things we wanted,

Now all our memories are hunted.

so school was okay today. for some reason everyone thought i was different.

even myself. something's wrong. dont know.

they all said i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

which i agree. i an exceptionally early today.. like seriously. first time ever! very early.

even faci was super shocked.

my hair was those "dont-give a damn" hair day today.

and seriously, i dont even know what i was wearing today!

look at it. its like a confused shirt!

everything is mis-matched!

the shirt is not fully a shirt nor is it fully a tee too.

thats why i had to tuck it in! and orange tanktop??

like wth??!! why did i even pick that colour?

plus blue belt?! like what the hell. with black shoe. and no socks.

my frens keep asking to irritate me,

"feeza, seriously ah.. what are you wearing?"

haha! i seriously wonder how i can end up going to sch like that.

today i can honestly say, i do not know what i want.

i seriously dont know wads wrong.

why i was like this.

i felt so lost. i even look lost, thats what they say.

i reach home my sis said "why u have that urgh look?"

padehal i didnt do anything.

maybe im like this because of everything that happened ytd.

everything that happened in school sucked.

school's becoming suckier. but i still love my class.

im just so tired. tired of everything.

exhausted of waiting for so long.

and in the end turned out like this.
i feel so messed up. a wreck.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& cant send you away

2010-07-15T23:11:00.000-07:00

why are you lying that it'll be okay?

there's no way my damaged heart could heal so easily.

that's why i.. cant let you go even if i die.

how could i let you go?

if you're going to go, if you're going to leave, fix my heart first.

so that i wont be in pain, so that at least i can live on.

if you cant, i'll die anyway so then i cant let you go even if i die.

if you're really going to leave, tell me a lie.

tell me that we'll be meeting again tomorrow, to see each other with a smile.

tonight, is 2AM night. heh.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& 10

2010-07-15T21:55:00.000-07:00

such a rhetorical question.

time to..

i promise to stop loving you tomorrow, today can be your last day

in my arms again. and yet again, promises are meant to be broken.

All my little plans and schemes, lost like some forgotten dreams,

seems that all I was really doing was waiting for you.

The only reason I didn't let you go is because you said you would always

be there. No matter how many days pass, I wait for you to come right

back through that door. If you never meant it, you shouldn't have said it.

You may no longer be there, but your words will never leave me.

means nothing more.

said not to assume. who's the one assuming now.

never even clarify. and scold like nobody's business.

want it to be this way? fine up to you.

means nothing tho, just a song fyi if you dont even know that.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& 9

2010-07-14T21:45:00.000-07:00

you want me to act like we've never hugged, you want me to forget;

pretend we've never met, and i've tried and i've tried,

but I haven't yet...

you walk by, and i fall to pieces.

and i dont wanna come between you and ur fren.

even tho i know i treat u better than *___* can

and i cant help, but wait.

When I see you, the world stops. It stops and all that exists for me is you,

and my eyes staring at you. There's nothing else. No noise, no other people,

no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow.

The world just stops, and it's a beautiful place, and there is only you.

Why do you play with my heart? Why do you play with my mind?

How could you love me and leave me and never say goodbye?

Well, i cant sleep at night without holding you tight.

Each time i try i just break down and cry.

Pain in my head, I'd rather be dead.

Although we've come, to the end of the road, still i cant let you go.

Could you love me again like you loved me before?

This time i want you to love me much more.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& 8

2010-07-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

I cant leave you. But you're constantly leaving me.

You walk away when you want, you come back when you want.

You stand by everyone, but you leave me.

So I'm asking you,

if you dont see a future for us,

if you're not in this, please.

Just end it because i cant.

something funny happened today.

after lunch,heading back to class.. me and V saw this millipead on the floor.

so i was playing2 acting like i kick it, then i walk off.

suddenly V said that thing at my shoe, so i was super shocked..i turn around.

and i straight away kick her knee. straight at her knee.

it was so hard can even hear sound somemore. hahaha!

it was super funny. thats for her, for saying that thing at my shoe. haha!

another thing was before ut.. we were going down to haven. go down stairs.

then she want piggy back me. so yeah.. i dont know what happen.

and what she did, suddenly she slipped and she fell down at the stairs.

it was super funny. like seriously.

then she sit down legs open. and she was wearing skirt! haahhaha!

serious shit funny. and i still laughing while typing this. haha!

and oh ya. both couples wore black today!

like cute onlyy.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& still not enough for you

2010-07-12T22:25:00.000-07:00

What am i gonna do when the best part of me was always you?

What am i supposed to say when i'm all choked up and you're okay?

And i'm falling to pieces, yeah i'm falling to pieces.

One still in love while the other one's breathing,

Cause when a heart breaks, it doesn't break even.

gjp, malam *kelmarin*.
dan itu hanya cinta. hehe.

i prayed.. for you to come to your senses.

i hear your voice, its like and angel sighing.

just like a prayer.

i miss your voice. so long. too long.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& 7

2010-07-12T05:00:00.000-07:00

i miss you. is that enough?

isnt he just cute?

hmm very i think.

oh yea smlm dier pon ader.

aish gjp, seriously oto ka jua?

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& 6

2010-07-11T17:00:00.000-07:00

i asked you to stay but you wouldnt listen.

and you left before i had the chance to say.

but now it's far too late you're gona away.

everynight you cry yourself to sleep.

thinking why does this happen to me,

why does every moment have to be so hard?

it's not over tonight.

just give me one more chance to make it right.

i wont go home without you.

wind is blowing lightly, and i picture you.

Sweet sunday morning, all by myself.

really wish that we could go back to the way that it was.

they say if it doesnt kill you, it'll make you stronger.

oh, but i cant be without you any longer.

im running fast,as fast as i can, to get you back.

i cannot wait, if we can be us again.

i cry at night, i cry for all the words i didnt say.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& day 5

2010-07-10T14:30:00.000-07:00

my head hurts. it really does.

i didnt want to wake up today. because i know you still wont be there.

after numerous phonecalls from everyone, i managed to wake up at 2pm.

my head hurts. it really really hurts.

i felt terrible when i woke up. my nose was blocked.

my body felt really hot and numb. i didnt know why.

i guess it was probably coz of last night. it's been so long. i guess..

plus the "wrestling fight" me and B had yesterday,

i think my head hit the side brick or smth.. hurts like %^#^*.

but B also got scar at stomach so its all fair.

i woke up feeling like i had a hangover. my head hurts.

i've read it all 48 times. aish oto ka jua,gjp?

"i dont remember what you smell like. you've been gone,

and i dont remember how you smelled. You didnt smell like

anyone else. I liked the way you smelled. I... I miss you a lot."

love,

monjeng

always & forever.

& day 5

2010-07-10T02:15:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "where have I gone wrong?".

Then a voice says to me,"this is going to take more than one night."

because your eyes, they tell me more than your words.

and forever came too soon.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& i miss everything about you.

2010-07-09T05:55:00.000-07:00

in just one day, i read yesterday's for 15 times.

today's? maybe 100 i guess.

i need the weekend run away real bad.

dont even pretend.

you're not sorry.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& day 3

2010-07-08T19:30:00.000-07:00

What is something you wish you had said to someone, but never did?

Mine is,

How could you just walk out of my life like that, without a care?

Did i mean that little to you? Was i that forgettable?

What would you say?

love,

monjeng

always & forever.

& SSBS

2010-07-03T19:00:00.000-07:00

this is the true answer for any science question. hehehehhe .

BORED IN CLASS.

can guess?

so yeap. hahahahhaha. seriously bored.

i did this to the screen. hehehehe. i paste all the ignite thingy on the front screen.

so now there are bluetags on them. hahahahhahaha.

P-DAY! indirectly. hehehehe.

this is what gareth do..put mayonaise on curry sauce.

wierd? i think so too! hahahahha.

walking to cwp at 1pm... :)

chilling outside w1.

packing up. see half the class left alrd. the rest packing to leave. :)

SOH TEAM BUILDING DAY.

this is team 4. :)

the whole group for 19th.

so yeap.

this week has passed by pretty fast dont you think?

its saturday yet again. very very fast!

so yeah. i think gjp coming soon. but he busy doing hp thingy.

hahahhahhaha. nvm u come good enough okay baby?

hehehe.

so yeap. tuesday to friday have been okay.

nothing much. just plain boring school. tuesday after school went to kinematics class.

for like 2hours. i felt like dying there. hahahahah.

but i still paid attention here and there loh.

me and V were like the only ppl fooling ard. everyone else were like serious?

kinda. abit. maybe. could be? hahahahha!

wed after school slacked in class for awhile

while doing the OB project thingy. dance2 in class for awhile.

then at5pm head for the briefing for this sun. "fly ur spore flag"

wth??!! how did i land myself in this? hahahahha.

so yeap. finish then head home with them. as usual..laugh laugh laugh.

until i want to pee. hahahahha k no.

reach home.. i had to finish up the OB project myself.

super super sian. from 8.30pm do until 11pm. like want die man.

thurs went to school. reach woodlands mrt ard 8.15am..

tap card out then i asked them "eh want take cab? seriously. no joke. today OB i cannot late!"

coz wed was late. so yeah wait for cab like wait for moon to fall.

took cab..but was still late. so yeah..wadever.

thursday was very very stressful. like serious. as usual lah..OB lesson ALWAYS like wan die.

morning alrd all ask "eh want partial?" hahahhaha.

but OB if you miss one lesson,next lesson you'll be like lost sheep. so cannot!

so yeah everyone seriously stress. worked super super hard for ppt.

at the end of the day,got what we want. faci was like "very well done presentation"

i feel good na na na na na. hehe.

after school went home with zim. and in the train we were like talking crap.

hahahahhaha. talk about "foot-long".. "gameboy".."SEGA SATURN!!"

hahhahha. the sega saturn part seriously cmi.

when changing trains i LITERALLY salam her.

we had our usual hand shake then she made me salam her. like those kiss hand.

ahhahhahahah. i know la i youngest. but shy sia.

people all look. hahahhahhah!

friday.. hahahhahhha. kite tige ni mmg anak dara pemalas.

we take cab again from mrt to rp. as usual... every morning i run to class.

haiya. sian man. reach class 8.31am.. then she marking attendance so i ask

"am i late?" then she was like.. "yeap..1min" like wth right!

classmates was like "wah u should have just bought food just now"

so i took my things and straight away left class. hahahahhaha. buy drink only

friday was loved. really. i love fridays. always. but that day even more la. haha.

i was like super restless in class. dont know why. hehe.

during our 2nd break..even more restless. they on songs super loud. those oldies kind..

those westlife all. and they open the door. so i was like jumping in and out singing songs.

1min do work.. next min i'll be dancing ard. hahhahahah!

only after go down to kofu then i behave abit. heh.

k no need alaborate more bout that.

so then me,serene,jarene and hanwee mane bets bout the game.

like durh! obviously. brazil vs holland!

they all kept saying brazil good. brazil win.

im the only pathetic sheep who said holland will win. hahahhaha.

serena said brazil win 2-1. jarena said brazil win 1-0. han wee said brazil win 2-0

i said holland will win 2-1. and hell yeaaaaaa. thats the exact score!

heheheh happy! HONEY MILK TEA! hahahha.

so yeap. tmr.... i got this "fly ur spore flag" thingy at sembawang.

must go resident's house and help hang the flag. then take pic.

for dunno wad guiness book of records.

i seriously do not know how i could end up doing this. the whole class force to sign up.

hahahahhaha so yeah. just sign up loh.

and seriously,this is my first time doing this kind of cip things.

in sec school.. not even a single one i do. not coz i dont want ok!

its coz concert band members all no need do. we special. hahahhah cheh!

but serious. we no need do. power yea? flag day also we no need do. heh!

so tmr... is my first. wooo shy man. heh.

when i told Z,B and A they were like laughing at me. hahahahha.

i know la! so lame and merepek kn. and so not me doing this kind of things.

but let me be good for one day k.

i help them hang their flag. hahahahhahh.

i excited for tmr!

and monday is ut! omg so fast. can die? i think so. hahahahaha.

i study whole day today. so bye.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&TRAGEDI BULAN JUNE

2010-06-30T00:10:00.000-07:00

this is the specific slide. IMAGINE!!

TRAGEDI BULAN JUNE. hehehe

let me tell you bout this day. and this day only!

i went out in the morning.. FINE AND DANDY!

tell more bout it later. have to be specific.

i think my feng shui on that day not in line uh.

or maybe because i was hoping to see you somewhere..but no. never see ur bayang2 pon.

or maybe because i was naughty?

or maybe because i cannot behave.

or maybe because its fated?

i choose to believe that it was because all.

so yea as usual fabsz meet up. and lepak tempat biase.

S last min cannot make it.. so yea,the 4 of us.

so we were sitting on top there. the usual place.. we sit there talk2.

then we see alot of ppl play kite.. so....feeling uh!

so we play open number.. end up,me and Z must go buy kite.

while A and B stand by there. me,Z and A wanted to go down the slide.

as usual..i get a little bit too excited. so i slide down abit. then i climb up back...

by the time i reach the top.. i no energy to sit alrd.. so i decided to slide all the way down.

so i turn around..then i sit down and slide.

......

halfway down the slide..my shoe like irritating. so i stand up and run all the way down.

then at the ending2 there..the slide keep bouncing2.

so i tripped at the rubber slide and i fall face flat on the floor.

thats not the end of it.. the ground was very rough and there were sand all over there.

so i landed face flat on the floor.. then i slide on the ground somemore.

wah cheeeken. i seriously felt like dying at that moment.

first thing that landed was my head on the ground. supported by my arms..

then my body which was then dragged or slide further on the ground.

i had a shocked of my life. serious. WHO WOULD EXPECT SIAAA.

i lay motionless there for like 1min. before getting my head back to the place.

i turn my body around and just lie there.

i couldnt move. all i could hear were laughters from the 3 of them.

seriously damn damn loud. they came to me. and yea..i laughed too. for about 2mins?

it was funny la. like seriously. it was funny.

but then aft 2mins.. the pain came to me.

waaaaa cheeeken damn damn pain. serious shits. damnnnnn pain.

tros muker cramp uh.

them : "hahahaha! eh eh.. ok tk? hahaha!"

me : "haha.. err.. err.. :(.... :((.... booohoooo... sob sob"

them : "eh eh. dier nangis la sia. eh bangon bangon!"

ok its super funny la. if you think back. like seriously.

so they brought me to another part.. and let me lie down there..

while they check my bruises.

bleeding at my stomach..left arms and right hand.

im telling u the one at my stomach bloody pain la siaaaaaaa.

then zim brought me to the toilet and wash all my bruises.

and leave it to dry.

i went out perfectly fine.

i came home with bruises and bleeding on my arms,stomach and blueblack at my knee.

and also my yellow tee top there..

yeah now has make up and mascara stains and also tears and blood stains.

im gonna auction it up. who wants?

hhahahahahhaa kidding.

came home mom asked me..

mom : "wad happen to you?"

me : "oh.. i fall down"

mom : "aiyoo u ah.."

*shows bruises at stomach*

mom : "eh omg. wad happen??"

me : "hehe i fall at playground"

mom : "mok mok..da besar pon nk main playground. bknnye nk balik bljr.."

me : "haha. chill ah. nk taubat da ni.."

wth. hahahhahaha. i think i fall coz S and J push me.

CHOW..!

i know la i shld be studying but still.... take a chill pill.

hahahhahha!

today i come in class only everyone look at me. then my frens ask..wad happen.

my standard ans "oh i fall at playground"

everyone standard reaction? "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"

faci saw the bruises and was like "aww so poor thing you"

i was like.. "yeah my brain cannot function today. so u must still give me A"

hahahahhahah wth.

it still hurts tho. like seriously. i cried when i shower ytd night..

the pain was like )(*(*&T*&%^.

i think i need you to nurse it then can. faster!!

go down on ur knees and nurse all my wound!

hahahahhahah. k dah.

tonite spain vs portugal. muahahahahhaa. gonna watch!!

:))

shall update bout the rest soon!

now i veli busy. ut next week. must study!

lastly,thanks to my lovely A.B.Z for being there when i fall.

like seriously. and the laughters about my fall after that was wad i needed. heh.

i'd rather be with you guys then with anyone else if i had to fall. hahaha.

but seriously,i cant rmbr the last time i cried in front of u guys when i fall.

too long ago alrd. but i love you guys. rmbr that okays.

next time someone else fall, my turn to laugh like cb ok? hehe.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& last week!

2010-06-27T20:20:00.000-07:00

so yeah. let me recap bout everything that happened. :)

SparksWind Concert. with yuhua concert band as guest band.(18june)

photo taken by ain. her caption "see feeza the redhead?" hahahaha thanks ain!

name and the person.. Feeza.Ain.Baz.Syam.Zim.

leemon senioritaz aka g2000 ambassadors. haha!

so yeah... the concert was great. like seriously.

although we all were tired. like very tired.

practice every night before the concert..

then somemore RP students were schooling and we had to rush to vch straight aft sch..

we seriously very tired.

but we enjoyed the concert very much. sungguh! haha.

and the encore piece..like omg. we only decided it like 1day before. hahahahha!

power. then next day play. hahahahhaha. all laugh2.

band is loveeee. reached home 12plus that night.

thanks for the flowers,mini book,my favourite and loved muffin,

whole box of chocolates and those small2 chocolates.

thank you!heh

not to mention the next morning i had to be in school by 9am..

coz got SOH team building programme.

and from my class only 7 ppl attend. power. all go tgt. ahahahha!

we alrd the last to arrive,then we all tired so we played cathcing otw there.

all in the LT ,we have "tweece" our hands. hahahhahah like primary school!

lucky got kaki in my group. i thought i would dread the day..

in the end,i enjoyed it very much. especially when u can act like a monkey and run ard.

and the games was not bad. especially the last one. "wedding bells".

all run like monkey sia. then hold hands coz dont want lose! hahahhahaha.

had a great day. but tired. seriously tired!

and oh baby, i sungguh tk bole luper you punye expression.

walaupon you tnjk dkat kwn2 i... tetap i suke.

and biler i nmpk you nye expression biler tgh carik i dlm gelap...

aisehhhh. carik kanan dan kiri biler tgh bebual dgn i di talipon.

you sungguh comel k. tapi pls gi potong rambot! heh.

walaupon u lmbt cm (*&*^*& and i marah,terime kasih sbb ape u ckp kat i sblom persembahan. and tlg eh. tkmo diri dekat2 dpn kwn2 u k. hehe :)

Lepak moments after school! :)

zim and baz eating their strawberry struddle. arent they sweet? haha!

we went to funfair and zim bought twist potato!! hahahaha.

potato can eat skin? hahahahha joke!

went to eat... that thing. i forgot. super niceeee.

______ is pregnant. oppss. shhhh. 3mths alrd. guess who?

in the morning all like zombie. but after school...

wah no need say ah. hahahaha!

Lepaks plus guitar hero! (21june)

so yeah... H came and stayed at my house for like 1week plus.

super gerek! although sometimes noisy. but yeah... had fun.

feels better when we talk about music to the family coz got member.

he plays the saxophone when sec school. and he used to teach me play sax...

coz he buy his own instru. which he dont play anymore! hahahaha.

so yeah. had fun. everymorning when i go school he havent sleep. like xiao right?

7plus then he sleep. so yeah.... head to bugis after school on that day.

i was like super tired and early.

so sit at starbucks with coffee and webcam with zim. hahahahhah!

she was like "sorg pe?....mau aku "teman" kau?"

hahahahhahahha busted. i got see mama! hahaha.

and me and her made a bet bout hair. hmmm we will see la eh. haha!

so yeah..meet them. then go walk2... then go play guitar hero.

funny sia! as usual..they always put me as the 1st singer.

i had to sing "beat it"-MJ and "hotel california". hahahahahha.

the beat it funny.. coz i was like screaming the "beat it" part. hahahahhah!

then take turn.. i played drums instead. wah that song hard sia the drums.

my points the most coz the ending i tambah2 play like those rock band gitu.

hahahahhaha! feeling uh babe.

then take turn i play guitar and yda yda yda. had a great day.

then go bugis walk2. they all go converse spam the things there sia.

H bought england shoe and france jacket. N bought france jacket. K bought germany jacket.

i want the italy shoe and italy jacket!!! i wanttttt.

i seriously want sia. but i scared if i buy mommeh scold.

so go home i ask her and she give green light!!

so im gonna get it soon. idc lah they out or not. its nice. so i want! hehe :)

then went to lavender,eat at beach room. walked all the way.

tired man. serious. esp when u have ur laptop and all. cheeken.

and omg the train ride back super funny. seriously.

i laugh till i want to pee sia in the train. as usual.. everyone was looking.

plus the converse bag..he go stuff everything inside until it broke. funny sia!

and he was like "wad type of name is joo koon?? and potong pasir??"

damn funny. CMI sia.

reach home,rush thru RJ... the lepak2 awhile at night.

as usual.. the whole week i slept kinda late. coz busy play xbox at night.

ahahhahahha. challenge soccer ah. haha.

bored @ class.

cute right the hair!! hahahaha.

so these is what they do when bored.

cute right the hair?

hahahahahahha.

these week have been kinda packed. busy busy in class.

and omg... this week,the whole week i late sia!! except tuesday.

omg man. i see all "to be downgraded(-0.5) because late"

cheeeeeken. next week must improve!! must must!!

girls, next week must improve ok?! k best.

i shall update about this weekend soon.

i had fun.

okay then.

time to study again. coz ut2 is next week!!

like wth!! so fast. cheeeken la the school.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&all night long fun

2010-06-17T23:55:00.000-07:00

they took a photo of me when i was sleeping. damn damn busted. hahahahhaha

dhan's bottle that broke. heheheh (Y)

us lepak-ing waiting for yours truly. :)

ussss

zameer's hair

they were so mean.

hahahahhaha mean right?

dhan's hair. NICE

i saw this the afternoon. super funny sia the name. hahahahahhah :P

this post will be about my weekend.

on sat head to band in the afternoon... with only band prac in mind. hahaha!

but yeah end up we lepaks2 and i overnight at school. as they having band camp mah..

so yeah.. prac was as per normal.

after prac lepak2 in alumni room.. there were quite a no of ppl.. and alot of laptops.

and alot alot of food. hahahahha.

kiwi ordered 6 boxes of pizza and omg...hahahahhaha

it accompanied me thru the night. hahahah

so we were super bored. slack2. eat2.

then zim,dhan,zameer and me played games. played hang man first..

"we'll be a dream-smack that-kimchi-dont rain on my parade-black pepper crab"

super funny. what we rmbr is "smack that kimchi"

hahahahhahahha. we played the "one word" game.

which was super funny. coz our sentences were all super merepek.

the game which entertained us most was "kfc-macd-long john-bk-hajjah maimunah"

hahahahha super super funny.

we played games from like 1am till 6am. crazy right?

at 1am i ate 1 slice pizza. at 3am i ate another slice pizza. at 5am i ate another. ahahhahah

i wont forget that night man. like seriously.

super fun.. esp the inside jokes we had now.

"hajjah maimunah" "fatimah mohsin" hahaha

talking of which... we were walking to band on sat and saw the majlis kahwin sign,

the parents name "pungot bin *i forgot* and sapiah bte tik"

hahahahahaha i know its org dulu2 name. but its still funny.

kdah.

ans so at 6am..we lay the twitter mat

which by the way i brought twitter but didnt even play. hahahaha.

so the 4 of us lie down on it. 6am then want to sleep. ahhahahhah.

and pls dont let zameer sleep beside you. hahahahha.

he will talk and talk and eat and eat.

then look at you when you sleep. ahahahhahaha.

he go put his earpiece in my ear when i half asleep and he play "doa taubat".

he said "must tenangkan hati when want to sleep" wth.

hahahahahha. so yeah ZzZzZ

zim woke up at 7.30am dhan woke up at 8.30am and i wake up at 11.30am

that also coz i dunno how many times they disturb me. hahahhaha!

serious sia. alot alot alot of times they disturb me sleep trying to wake me up.

so showered and went out for lunch. go back school and lepaks again...

as usual.. the 4 of us lie down on top of the table and just crap.

like seriously. hahahhaha. then bored.. so me zim and dhan went out to buy burger..

hehehehe. eat non stop i know. hahahahha.

went back school... eat.. then prepare for band practice.

ended late..went home and prepared for school.

sad coz only rp is schooling. the rest all continue to overnight i guess..

but yeah. wadever. school is still school. can never avoid it.

me and zim accepted it. cheh. ahhahahahha.

i'll update about the rest soon

quick update.. tmr is concert

like waaaahhhhh so fast mann

no joke. super fast. super duper fast.

but yeah what the heck.

im gonna love tmr. let's hope

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&new hair

2010-06-10T23:50:00.000-07:00

I MISS THIS TIME! heh
i like this picture. i look so free! :D hehehehehe

i just realised that i look as if im scolding the small girl in this photo! hahahahhah :P im not!

so....on wed.

hmmm left the house it was raining. like urgghh. hahahaha.

so yeah met zim and dhan at zim's place.

chill2 there first while waiting for that pig. hahahahhah. always late one.

so yeah then we ordered pizza. all hungry what. k no.. dhan hungry.

so yeah ordered 2 pizza and they gave us c/b. like omg sia!! hahahahha :P

and omg. that cutie. sleeping when i arrived.

nvr wear shirt. wah badan so *kong*. hahahahhahah !!

i was just sitting there and staring. the face so bulat sia. so cute! hehehehehe.

so yeah then erin arrived then eat pizza yda yda yda.

then we were talking bout the dance comp on sat. alumni vs yuhua. cheh!

hahahahhaha.

zim" eh i know all my dance steps alrd. ring ding dong"

me" oh yeah yeah u do that then i do the hip hop dance"

zim"eh wahhh can ah. can can"

dhan" eh..wait then i do what?"

*me and zim both look at dhan* then both HAHAHHAHAHHA.

then we talked about doing flashmob during their camp dinner.

hahahhahaha cnfm they all shocked sia!! confirmm!!! hahahahhaha.

went to the salon. did my hair first. cut it... trim abit here and there.

the usual thing i do whenever i go saloon uh. then colour.

i shall only reveal my pic aft the concert. yea! dont be shocked. :P

then i do alrd... erin cut her hair. like omg! i like her hair sia!

she now become boy/girl. hahahhahahha! then since i dye ape lagi...

hasut ah. ahhahaha kidding. told her to dye her hair... only the front part.

and omg nice nice!! makes her look like a gangster though. but nice! hehehehe.

after we're done.. both zim and dhan said

"wah our parents both fierce sia!" hahahhahaha.

so yeah head to band then.. first time we late uh. :)

reach only time for combined. hahahahaha. guess people were shocked to see my hair?

or is it maybe coz i changed my hair colour too many times alrd?

their reaction all " wahh! your hair.. you change colour again?"

hehehehe yes yes. im bored with that colour. change loh.

main point : i am rihanna fan. ok! hahahhahaha.

and yea all the songs we played that night i love love! niceeeeee.

all of us like high on sugar like that. kept playing and playing.

non stop sia! hahahahhah. even though its like.. somesort 1st time play...

we all play as if many2 times play. everything like nice je. like no mistakes! hahahhahah.

this is what u call..... ehem ehem band. :P kidding.

but seriously..everyone was high that night. think we managed to play like 3 or 4 songs?

and hearing that we're gonna play *that* song for the concert just makes me go *melts*

hope he play that solo again. yeaaaaa. hahahhahaha

i am so looking forward to sparkswind concert! :P

so ytd cldnt really sleep. kept thinking and thinking.

so yeah woke up this morning felt empty.

aiyaa wadever lah. life is short. live life to the fullest. hahahahahha.

maybe i just love doing crazy things to myself? hahahhaha

then zim texted ask if free anot. hahahahha always free! :P

so yeah met the usual 2 at jp. went to eat at bkk.

feeling mkn turkey bacon since like few days ago. finally get it.

and that person... yes dhan,erin,nab its that same person. hahahahha.

she gave us extra $1. we very good ok! give her back the money. hahahhahaha.

then accompany ain go ______. cheh cheh. da wild. :P hahahahha

then after that seriously we dunno where to go alrd.

i dunno how many times we round round jpoint. hahahahha.

then sit outside jpoint and chill. talk2 bout tmr. hhehhehe.

until got one small kid berkenan uh with ain. kekekekeke.

then went to get ice cream cones. like oldies sia.

hahahhaha and i seriously cannot pass eat ice cream. hahahhaahh.

not so messy uh. so head to buy some food.

then while ain ordering i was talking to zim. for a moment.. i forgot i got ice cream.

so i swing swing my hand all. then the ice cream fly into my arm and shirt. hahahhahah!

first time to do : laugh. hahahhahah.

lucky i know the girl working there. hahahahha. thanks shikin for the tissue.

save my hand and shirt from getting all sticky. hahahahhah.

since we're so bored alrd. wen home loh. so now....

just listening to music. and doing nothing.

and oh yea tmr they start their band camp. aishhhh.

i miss band camp. no joke. serious..i miss band camp.

5 days of torture. 5 days of ACTUAL BOOT CAMP. 5days of prison.

5days w/o leaving sch. 5days w/o any form of communication to the outside world.

5days w/o electronic devices. 5days w/o chocs and sweets and peach tea!
5days of falling in at 7am. 5days oh barrack cleaning&inspection.

5days of hundreds of pumping.

its terrible uh. but still there are some good points too.

5days of fun play music. 5days of delicious food(sometimes).

5days of bonding with everyone else. 5days of fun time disturbing ppl.

actually more. esp when its ROD camp. omg..

partay all night sia. sleep at 2/3 am for 5days. eat like piggg. ahhahahhaha.

wake up anytime we want. hahahhahaha i miss ROD camp. hehe.

i still miss band camp loh. really. so fun get to run from rooms to rooms at night. hehehhee.

and oh yeah. we have dance comp sat night.

power yeah. alumni vs yuhua. hahahhahahha

so funny sia. the last we had was at korea. woah power. ahhahahaha.

alritey!

think im gonna look forward to tmr. lepak time with the usual again.

yeah yeah.

okay bye!

wish i could press rewind

and rewrite every line,

to the story of me and you.

love,

monjeng

always & forever.

&hair dedication

2010-06-09T00:45:00.000-07:00

i'll dedicate this post to my hair okay?hahahahaha.

actually,i miss my hair. when it was at the early stages of colouring.

coz the colours come from the roots of the hair.

right now its all just preety messed up. so yeah.

let's give a history of my hair lately.

dont talk about sec 1-sec3 ah. that one also dunno how many times my hair coloured.

so last yr ard oct,before raya i did my first highlights.

it was light brownish. few weeks before olevels. yeah. hahahahhaha! power.

then on the 2nd last paper of Os ard nov.. i reborn my hair.

hahahhahaha. double rosak.

then ard early january..1 week before esplanade concert..

i highlight my hair again.. brownish blonde. triple rosak! ahhahahahha.

and so i think i can say i am sick and tired of this colour. can?

so..tmr gonna head to the saloon. and re-do my whole hair.

i seriously do not know if i should cut short. like rihanna in "take a bow".

i mean that hair style is just like woooaaaahhhhhh.

hahahha. so i dunno what to do to my hair.

or maybe i should just let it be. let it grow till it can sweep the floor. :P hahahahhaha.

im kinda excited...but at the same time scared?

that i doesnt turn out the exact way i want it to be.

so yeah. wait for it.

love,

monjeng

always & forever.

& wedding and concert

2010-06-08T22:25:00.000-07:00

rv concert & sparkswinds as guest band. :)

syam's sister wedding. :)

so yeah. didnt sleep the whole night on sat.

hahahahaha. coz mom's reaching spore at like..6am.

so yeah..all say want to follow pick her up.

end up me and my dad only. no 1 bubble queen=nadia.

hahahahaha. my dad was like dancing2 in the car at 5am..

guess he too happy uh bini dier balik. :P hahahahhaha

so yeah. saw her at airport..first person she hug is me. hahahha terharu! wth

so yeah... then went home. talk2 awhile. i was too sleepy uh.

she said she didnt buy much coz the things there were quite ex.

she bought 3 ripcurl wallet. didnt take any coz the one i wanted..i gave sis.

mengalah! hhsahahhahaha. she bought dad a fossil watch.

fossil leh! she also bought for herself. so they got like couple watch.

hahahahahhaha. nvm loh. i aiming for another watch.

but first gotta start using my fcuk watch. i used like...twice only.

like sayang sia if want to use. hahahahha. $400 sia. buy for show only. :P

well thats wad i said when i bought the ellesse watch.

i kept thinkingit was $150 then rarely used. now i use it everyday. hahahahah!

so yeah talk2 awhile. she story2 to us about her encounter there.

then i went to sleep. all the way till 3plus.

then had no choice but to wake up and shower for band prac.

wear serious slack to band. after band become gadis melayu terakhir.

hahahahhaha super funny sia. angkat kain tinggi2 and run out of school like pencuri.

hahahahahha. tklah main catching! :P

so yeah. went to the wedding. super nice sia. serious.

the pelamin like wow! ahhahahaha.

so camwhored. and fabsz were the first to write in the guest book. ahhahahah.

then go to her house and see the hantaran. waaaaaa man!

ahhahahahahha. then slack2

then went home. very tired. super tired.

but couldnt sleep at night. dunno why.

toss turn toss turn. turn toss turn toss. hAHAHHHAH.

ard 4plus then i managed to sleep.

so durh obviously the next morning i cannot wake up. ahhahahha.

i woke up at 8plus by zim's phonecall.

zim"eh where you?"

me"huh? eh now what time?...oh shit.you where?"

zim"i leaving house soon."

me"oh ya i also leaving alrd"

hahahahahha. padehal baru bangon! so yeah showered then got into half uni.

met the "family" at mac for breakfast. ahhahahhaha.

let's just say the concert was ooookkkaaaayyy.

like no feel uh for the concert... dunno why.

i mean..the songs are nice. like really nice. but the concert...

serious shit no feel. play like slack2. hahahahahha.

but yea wadever. so after concert went to yuhua then back to jpoint..

accompany them eat. hahahahahha.

dhan and nab got bad service from one of the waitress.

then erin wanted to get back at her but too bad her break liao. hahahhahaha.

funny sia that one.

so yeah. dinner was at sakura with family.

the night before dad said to me "you plan and coordinate all the timing..i pay only"

hahahahha like baik je. so yeah. it was not bad uh. i think that outlet like okay2 je.

but still eat like pig. ahhahahahha.

monday movie marathon till my body aching.

this is what bored people do right?

movie after movie. hahahahhaha.

at night sit down and have a looong talk with parents.

we always do that uh. sit down and just crap alot. ahhahahha.

mom asked me what i wanna do with that money.

i really dunno if i should buy ipt or not. confuse ah. :S

so yeah...just crapped crapped and crapped.

then daddy comment to sis about her dressing. ahhahahahha.

while he was doing that mom was laughing laughing . hahahahhha

daddy "why u laugh2?"

sis "ba..chillax ah. kite masih young. nk kene experience ni smue"

daddy "what experience? no. i dont like."

mom laughed even more.

daddy "why are u still laughing?"

mummy "hahaha rilek ah. i when young also like that wad."

me " yeah..then can go partay2..!" ahhahahha.

mummy "yeah go partay!" and she did the dance2 movements.

hahahahhahaha. epic sia my mother. sometimes too slenger also. ahhahahaha.

at night didnt sleep...until 6am. hahahahhha. bored uh.

so yeah... watched glee. played xbox.. draw2 alot of things. hahahahha.

6am then i slept.. hahahahaha. woke up ard 3. golek2 at bed first.

then showered around 6 left home.

at first supposed to be i meet sis only.

then mom suddenly say she want to follow. then when bro heard we going out,he also want follow.

hahahahhahha end up all follow! wth. ahhahahahha.

so yeah... wanted to buy smth.. but dunno wad.

my main purpose was to collect my merchandise from mac.

end up out of stock. so need come some other time..

so went to levis. bought tee shirt. hahahahha. for fun je.

so yeah contemplating on buying jeans at levis or fox or pull and bear.

end up buy another tee shirt at fox. hahahahha.

think i'm gonna buy levis jeans soon. :)

so yeaaaa, thats all for today.

if i bored i blog again.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&red hair!

2010-06-08T02:10:00.000-07:00

so totally loving her new hair.

hmm...giving me an ideo of what i should do with my hair.

hahahahha yea yea.

shall have a proper update soon.

maybe tmr?

hmmm we'll see.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&for fun

2010-06-07T00:05:00.000-07:00

this was before last mon's rehersal.

we were tying to do braids on erin's hair. zim one side,me at the other.
super messed up. hahahhaha. all she felt was pain. :P

super funny!

since im bored,
took this from my sis's blog.
:D

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

"especially in the presence of my children. i talked to jane's.."
Nicholas Sparks "the wedding" :)

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What’s there?
my buttercup alarm clock. hehe

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
CSI ;)

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
11.30pm

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11.38pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Glee's Songs on ipod

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
A moment ago,dinner.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
handphone msg?

9. What are you wearing?
ocean pacific's tee and arsenal shorts. :)

10. Did you dream last night?
dont really dream. heh

11. When did you last laugh?
just now... with leemon. :) one family..aww! hahahahha :P

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
purple stripes,cockboard,my collage,my drawing,our photo hehe

13. Seen anything weird lately?

wierd? definition..?

14. What do you think of this quiz?

simple.

15. What is the last film you saw?

SHREK 3D!! :DD

16.If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

willy wonka's chocolate factory. hehe

17. Tell me something about you that I don’t know:

i dont care.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

i seriously do not know.

19. Do you like to dance?

yeah kinda. :D

20. George Bush:

who's that? :P

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

Natasha :)

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

Khairil Adam Pyo :) HAHAHAHAHAHA

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
YesYes! :D

24. What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates?

"assalamualaikum..are we gonna partayyy?" HAHAHHAHAHHA!

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& lepak fun times!

2010-06-05T00:01:00.000-07:00

tonight was fun fun fun loved!

so yea. spend my whole thursday at home.

doing... oh yea counting sheeps and staring at the ceiling and rolling on my bed.

till i fall on the floor and my chair fall on my leg and now got blueblack.

k dah. hahahaha.

so yeah. spend my whole night with these 2 jokers. hahahha!

zim texted me like about 4plus ask if i free.

hahahha sentiase free. so yeah met them about 5plus.

thought got wad hal je. skali.. nk spy2 je. hahahahhaha.

donald duck! hahahahha. k ssshhhh.

yeah bored. so me and zim. ahhh secret.

hahahhahaha. shouldnt have loh. too soon alrd. 2 weeks only leh.

pain sia. hahahhaha. shall not do anymore for a very long time.

bored ke tk bored. NO! hahahahhaa.

so yeah...went to guardian. bought my things and nenek's things.

then buy sushi and went to our usual tmpt lepak there.

hahahhahhha!

eat eat eat. suddenly me and ain wanted to challenge who eat finish first.

hahahahhah! dunno why. like bored gitu.

so yeah.. i didnt even chew. i put in 6 sushi into my mouth.

it was super funny sia. i cannot tahan sia,laugh non-stop.

end up she wont coz i was laughing. didnt even swallow. hahahahah.

i laughed with 6 sushi in my mouth. hahahahhaha!!

from funny until become like i want vomit. hahahhaha but i didnt!

shall not eat sushi for next 1 month!

oh yeah. very cute hor..we used the plastic beg to cover our butts.

coz the ground was wet. hahahahha. mine was the smalllest! ahhahahha.

could only cover half my butt. end up my pants wet. hahahahhah! abit only

so yeah then we sit below there... and err. yeah me and zim. hahahhaha.

so long leh nvr. hahahahaah! shh u know i know. :P

then move up.. lepak there from like 6.30pm till 9pm.

cool or what? hahahhaha. i also didnt feel like going home.

so bored aje asyik stay at home.

first sit down... talk about school,holidays,ghost story..freaked out abit..

then back to talking about school and future plans.

zim : "eh wad will u be doing in 10years time?"

me : "hmm..27 years old... think gonna get married alrd.."

zim & ain : "OII CAREER LEEEHH! "

HAHAHHAHA

me : "oh oh hahahhahah. hmm further studies loh,aft uni"

hahahahhha that one funny sia. hahahhaha.

so yeah. talked alot bout our future plans. and many other things.

wah miss that man. i miss all 5 of us just lepak-ing and talking bout....

almost everything! ahhahahhha.

then all three lie down... body pain sia. hahahahha.

stargazing.... hahahaha only got 2 stars.

then sing belaian jiwa...lelaki baru.... hmm like jiwang ah we all tonite.

and for the first time,nobody kacau2 me ask to go home yda yda.

felt soooooo peaceful. maybe coz my mom tkde uh. hahahhaha :P

but she coming home tmr! yay.

yeaaa. so took bus home. then changed bus.

discuss about our plans tmr.. like busy like that only. ahhahahaha.

dari nk pki kemeja... end up...

hahahahhahahha. tmr we all become gadis melayu terakhir k.

:P hahahahah.

like excited only. gonna be very selekeh to band prac.

so yeah.

thats all for today.

mommeh coming home at 6am tmr. dunno if nk slp ke tk tonite...

but tmr very busy. and sunday concert.

hmmm see how. sleep by laptop k? :P

ahahahahhha!

hahahaha k i cant forget this.

just gotta say here! hahahahhahahhahahhaahhaha. laugh first.

HAHAAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA KDAH.

miley cyrus sing new song "ketika cinta bertasbih".

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH. :P

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& HAIRSTYLES

2010-06-01T21:25:00.000-07:00

i like the last one. the "edgey bangs" fuuhhh

POWER !!!

HONESTLY,I LIKE THIS BEST.

i seriously want a new hairstyle.

i cant find a picture of her russian roulet hairstyle..but wah

thats the best sia.

i just need do smth to my hair. cut it. trim it. new colour. treatment.

i neeeeeeed to do smth to my hair.

i am siccccckkkkk and tirrreeeddd of this colour.

it looks like shit now especially now that the roots are growing.
which one. which oneeee.

and right now my hair's a lil bit different alrd. hahahahhah!

kinda abit like the 2nd pic. waaaa. ahhahahahhah

only those seeing me tmr can see i guess?

tu pon if tk malas nk jage. hahahhahha.

very hard to bath with this hair. seriously. hahahahhaha.

i like those kinda spikey2 hair. *sharp sharp* eh zim. haahhahah :P

sec 2 joke sia that one. hahahahhaha.

and right now is GSS.

me and sis were "shopping" using dad's iphone 2 days ago

and omgggg. there's so many sales like everywhere.

but my money kena FREEZE in the bankkkkkk.

aaaaarrrrgggggghhhhhh.

when i ask my dad for money he says this "why ask me? u got more money than me wad"

well daddy... i wouldnt ask you if my money nvr kena freeze okayssss.

guess i have to wait till mom comes back then i'll sweet talk her.

hahahhhahha. which is like 4 days more. okay can. :P

besides would be busy until concert. so yeaaa. shall not think of shopping.

IKAT TANGAN! hahahhha.

okays first things first. hairstyle!!!

actually,i love my present hair.. only the colour.....

like shitss.

k dah.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& B O R E D

2010-06-01T18:40:00.000-07:00

i miss this time. hahhahahaha. i rmbr we were all afraid to get close coz of her face. hahahha!

so yeaaaa.
im like super bored at home now. so blog lah.
ytd went to yuhua ard 3plus.. slack2 in the canteen.
took a family portrait using dhan's lappy. hahahhahah. super funny.
then waited for yhcb to finish their band prac then took our respectives instrument.
cabbed down to rv. hahahaha. super funny in the cab.
nab sat in the front seat. me,zim and erin at the back.
with one huge instru case at my legs there. hahahahhaha.

erin "eh why u all always sing ur malay2 song ah?"
coz zim was singing "merindu kepastian".
so i said "then u sing ur cristian song ah.. "
end up all sing wad song? hahahahahha SCHOOL SONG!
"...the morning sun shines bright..upon my sweet homeland.."
hahahhahaha funny sia. we sound so stupid.

reached rv quite early. suppose to start at 6.30 we reach there at 5.45pm. hahahaha!
so we pikol all our instru to the auditorium and damn it was nice.
it had the feeling of singapore conference hall and korea's concert hall.
so we slacked there first while rv was playing.
zim braid zameer's hair and damn it was nice. really!
really really nice. so we asked him to braid his hair during concert day.
so ytd night he asked me to show him my braided hair.
and he said he will think about it. hahahhaha just do lah!
so yeah then went to warm up for abit then into the hall for rehersal.
can i say i dont like the hall? its like so dry. seriously.
have to play louder than usual. really. the hall.... haiyoh. nvm lah.
so yeah played for 3hours in there.
wahlau after play the first song over and over i like want to asthma sia. damn the hall.

so when we ended around 9plus. i was starting to get really moody.
i was hungry. damn damn bloody hungry.
i didnt eat a single thing since morning,only half a twiggie. and 2 cups of coffee.
i seriously felt like eating someone up.
cabbed home. brought home 2 fat instrument. orderred double quarter pounder.
and ate to my full. hahahahahha. k no i gobble it down.
i dont usually do it. normally i will eat really really slow.
but when i hungry like oink oink,i gobble my food. no need chew also. hahahah :P

so yeah.. slept around 3plus ytd?
busy @ my club lah. hahahhahah!
woke up at 12.30? today. hahahhahhaha. wished i woke up later.
used to be able to wake up at 5pm. now coz used to waking up early loh.. thats why
strum on the guitar. and 1 string broke. hahahahhah!
so nothing to do... watched skins. bored alrd cleared my drawer.
i was looking for one picture.... at first found so many old pics of me.
ahhahahaah!! will nvr show anyone.
then i found it. hahahhahh muahahahahha. the photo i was looking for. :P
yeahhhh.

then i found his letters. i mean yeah they were all very sweet. but very very long.
no one in the right state of mind would write letters 4 or 5 page long.
hahahhahahah. i think you yourself know who you are eh.
you used to quietly stalk me last time. im not too sure if u still do now. hahahahah!
well u just said u missed me the other day. so yeah. guess so? hahahhaha.
but i like the drawing. of my name..that u did. very nice!
k sorry ah. after 3years then i realised. hahahhhaa.

so im waiting. for wad? i also dunno. :P
im just too bored. hahahahhaha. k yesaaaaa. tmr at least will be doing smth.
hahahahahha!
k bye "homies!"
hahahha oopppssss did i just say that? *hint hint* @stalkermay
OI MONJENG PIKIR TWITTER PE?? hhahahahahhaha

put away those bitter sorrows
and useless promises.
will you be mine?

love,
monjeng
always & forever

& mom's

2010-05-30T21:35:00.000-07:00

she looks so slenger in this photo. :P

I MISS MY MOMMEH CAN??

haiyoh,i cant even wake up this morning.

set my own alarm.. but i keep snoozing you.

thanks hor for shouting at me to wake up. hahahahaha.

head to band. hahahahha super funny lah band today.

"eat more chicken rice.."

"HAHAHAHAHHA"

"old school joke.."

hahahhahahahha say so loud somemore!

okays so like.... 3 more pracs to 6th june concert.

and like 8 more pracs to 18th june concert. busy busy..

other than that i have nothing better to do.

spamming movies and shows like nobody's business.

i might just go to the extend of taking the car keys and go for a spin.

hahahaha. if i was at 2nd house,i'll do that everyday. no fear.

tmr there's band. hahahhaha. rehersal at the concert hall for 6th concert.

woah gotta go yuhua and pikol the instru there.

hahahha as usual,flag cab. :)

they say if it doesnt kill you, it makes you stronger

oh, but i cant be without you any longer.

everytime i let it go, baby it's you.

nothing compares to you.

sweet sundays.

love,

monjeng

always & forever.

&misses

2010-05-29T22:25:00.000-07:00

And i need you now tonight.

And i need you more than ever.

And if you'll only hold me tight,

We'll be holding on forever.

And we'll only be making it right,

Cause we'll never be wrong together.

I really need you tonight.

Forever's gonna start tonight.

so yeah, 2 weeks holiday started alrd.

and i alrd feel so sian. dunno wad to do lah.

other school doesnt have the same holiday as us.. how to go outs?

ain,syam,erin,dhan all still schooling.

im just so bored lah. shall ask all of them come my house and have lepak-fest.

POWER!

and i just got back from sending mummy off to australia.

waaa sial la so far sia. the parents ask her take care of their child..

then how bout her child here in spore?? so sadded. hahahaha.

i feel so sad. my bitch-ing partner has gone. hahaha.

and baz's going cambodia tmr..

my uncle going umrah next week. wah so many ppl going.

if our holiday is later abit,i'll be going too.

go hong kong.. planned alrd.. then hols clash..cancel!

wah sad sad. this gonna be the first june hols i'll be at home. hahaha.

im super sad. daddy promised end of the year.. we will see la eh.

go gjp. :)

its only starting of holidays and i alrd finished 1st season for skins.

walauweh tell me how to survive for 2 weeks?? hahahaha.

and kepade jantan *ehem ehem* gjp,terima kasih kerana kasi i senyum tadi.

u cute k? and i tk kisah u busy tk busy.. tp i harap u dtg i nye persembahan.

ok this is funny. hahahhahahhahah :P

tkpe asal kn u dgr ckp i. hahaha.

you promised forever. forever has not yet started.

thank you for always being there.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&happy

2010-05-25T23:15:00.000-07:00

bad day. terrible day. atrocious day. horrible day. @ school.

tapi kn... sbb kan you, i jadi giler lagi.
i syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg you. hehehehe.

love love.

and i think singing "belaian jiwa" with sunset is super sweet.
yes, FABSZ.love.

& tired tired

2010-05-11T22:45:00.000-07:00

THESE ARE THE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH MY ASS OFF EVERYDAY!! :P

so yeah... life has been mundane lately.
as usual everyday go school. and home late. this is starting to get very tiring.

really. its starting to get really really tiring!

i mean.. its ok if the faci's make our time and effort worth it by giving us grade A or B

but to those facis' who gave C and D.. its just unacceptable.

ur just pulling us down man. its not even a motivation to go to school. like wth!

and everyday i will be like lack of sleep. so by the time its 6P,my eyes would be

showing me some mini movie. when its closed! like seriously ah.

sian man!!

i dont even know why EVERY SINGLE DAY i will feel so tired.

its like... ok fine. i think coz school is like super far. and everyday have to walk like...

i dunno 9876835475698km??!! like wth!

i know i know. its only year 1 sem 1.. no need remind.

but seriously ah. i swear to god i can sleep for 1 year man. its damn tiring!

i am sick and tired of everyday doing presentation. really!

ok fina la. starting2 best uh. tp now like )*&*%&% only.

i seriously have no more comment for school.

and today presentation was like ()&(*^&% ok! thanks.

kena shoot like (*&*&(^*&^. wah like want to fight sia.

eh thank ur lucky star i not in the mood to fight uh. if not u confirm see the "minah" side of me.

but no i give u chance ok. so u sit back and rilek and enjoy the show.

hahahahah wth! no link. ahahahahah

and i was like super super nervous just now. really and it was super cold.

so nervous + cold... = bladder burst like pipe. hahahahhaha.

when faci say my team's turn then suddenly
i was like cannot tahan alrd. i just say "err facii i really cannot take it. i need to pee. too nervous"

and i ran out of the class and LITERALLY RAN to the toilet. hahahahha!!

hahahahhahha. my bladder like siak. i noe.

and so long nvr oovoo then tonite like super super funny like that.

hahahahha serious shit funny sia.

im holding my own concert now. korean concert.

"come on everybody" "one more time". hahahahah!! wtf siaaaa

seriously perangai bdk bored.

mmg bored ponnnnnn. ader laaa ehhh!! hahahahahha

and yeah i bought for mommeh sombonia beg for mother's day.

hahahhahaha. and i bought one for myself too.

eh wad i but for ppl i also want uh. can right? my money wad.

hahhahahaha!! and im gonna be very busy from now on with band.

esp now that concert is nearing. gosh. gonna be even more tired. :(

sorry i no time for you. and gjp :(

ok then. shall update soon.

oh yeahs UTs are this friday. so gonna be busy studying. like literally.

im gonna study. i mean it!

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&funny

2010-04-29T21:15:00.000-07:00

oh my god. so long nvr update. hahahahha.

so many things happen. hahahahah!

so yeah school is ending its 3rd week tmr. hahahah. 3rd week but counted as 2nd. -_-

ahhahah so yeah.

let me just recall some funny incidents. haha

so yeah in school boring do what? play game or webcam! hahahah

so yeah there's this one morning in the train we were sitting down then

suddenly the train jerk so got this aunty.. hahahhaha

she fell down on the guy beside her. hahahha.

like hindustan sia she fall. hahahahah! so like durh obviously i laugh. hahahhaha.

then there's this one incident we all 3 sit down. super duper tired.

then all sleep in the train. hahahahha. and didnt realise when reach woodlands alrd.

zim:*shakes baz who sitting beside her* eh da smp baz..

baz: *sleeping* blom lerr...

zim: da smp ler. tu rp ape!

*all three woke up and turn to look behind and saw rp*

hahahaha then all three quickly run out of the train sia. hahahaha

that day was like super super funny.

oh my godd.... can die sia like this.

every mornign i will laugh coz of train incident.

the rest of the day i will laugh like mad cow coz of my classmates.

going home i laugh bcoz of zim and baz and train incidents.

oh my god. seriously. i will become insane like this. hahahahah.

so yeah. hahahahha. lately school have been great. only got 1 person find fault laa.

dont want say,the girls know. hehehe.

so yeah "house warming" the other day was great. many many turned up.

i think about..100?

it was really packed man my house. lucky its 3 floor if not i think all like sardine.

hahahahahah.

so yeaps. the food was like super duper best.

daddy called caterer to handle the food and all. and its super nice.hehe

more than 1K spend on food. -_- xiao

ahahahhaha so yeah.

back to school.... there's this one day where presentation all was super nervous.

so when my group turn,i started shivering and laughing at the front and suddenly i.....

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA.

ok is seriously didnt mean to. omg! im not gonna say. hahahahahaha. the class laugh lor.

paiseh! hahahahhahah. i mean those near2 me then know. hahahahah!! crazy ppl

hahahahah.

so yeah ytd during lesson my group watch this ghost video at youtube.

suddenly some shocking parts came out and all 5 of us shouted like super loud!

ahhahahah the whole class look at us. and even faci inside class. hahahaha.

the next door class said they could hear us. ahahhahahah. so funny loh!

then we played hotel 626. its a ghost hotel game which you can only play from 6pm-6am.

hahahahah dunny why. so i changed my laptop time to 6.15pm,then hanwee play.

ahahhahahha! he play then like 10 classmates crowd ard and see.

super funny lah! and they all go push me sit infront.

they know i scared they still push my chair to the front. hahahahahha!

my heart go up down up down. ahahhahahah!

so met up with the girls on tues. super duper great. miss them so muchie.

talk talk laugh laugh. but i had to chao early coz celebrating daddy's bday at home.

hehehehehe,

so ytd night we all oovoo at night. it was super super funny and hyper. hahahahha.

until zim's mom also involved. ahhahahahah.

they girls kena farted by me! ahhahahahahah. that one epic sia.

i stand on my chair,put my butt and webcam and fart. haahhahah.

since its video call,they can hear. ahahhahaha! but i smell!

hahahahaha so funny sia.

seriously damn funny. hahaahah!

alright then,im looking forward to the weekend. partayyyy! hahahaha

with love,

monjeng

always & forever

&POWERR GEDEGAKKKK

2010-04-18T17:10:00.000-07:00

so let me tell you about my previous week. POWERRR GEDEGAKKKK!
HAHAHAHHA!

12/04 -syam's belated

14/04- after jam&HOP hahahah! 9pm.

SOHHHHH! -School Of Hospitality @ jam &HOP.

so yeah last week was school orientation. to those who have yet to know i go rp,well yeah.

they last min accept my dae and here i am in rp, customer relationship and service management.

so yeah. i didnt go pre-orientation. so yeah.

1st day orientaion,12/04 went to school with zim and baz. all excited sia. hahahhaha!

got alot of insects in the stomach. hahahhaha!

so yeah they both SAS, i SOH. then go seperate ways. got i nto my team, sexy 16. hahahha!

1st day all shy luh. obviously, then went around the sch in our team to play game.

from there all become xiao. and i get to shout in the lift. hahahahhaha!

there was one game where we have to tie our legs together. that one i cannot take it sia.

hahahhahah! i laugh like xiao. it was really funny. seriously. hahahhaha!

then blah blah blah, after that short met up with FABSZ. yeahhhh.

we alrd janji 1st day of school to meet up. really funny.

gave syam belated bday bash. we buy her Chanel cake ok! hahahahhaha!

the photo everyone face tired sia. well,all 1st day. ahhhahahha!

but i was fun meeting and talking bout school.

1st day of school me and ain entertain each other thru msg. hahhahaha! both bored luh.

i kena stare up down sia. hahahhahah!

reach home ard 9 and bloody tired. eyes cannot open.

wanted to sleep but waited for parents to come back from ugame coz i ask mom buy for me peach tea. and i neeeeddd peach tea.

then she buy me seasons peach tea. my fav is pokka. wah sad sia... hahahahha. so sleep loh.

2nd day orientation,13/04. was ok uh. tired alrd so like no mood to pick out wad to wear.

cincai lah. hahahah! then reach school go to our home base then practice cheer.

then go down to the field. all schools meet there coz got tug of war competition.

fun sia. seriously,but i hate being under the sun. it was damn hot. damn damn hot.

1st practice mass dance. which i swear confusing coz he teach very fast. hhahahha!

then me and another 2 of my friends cabot to toilet and lepak there coz damn hot. hahahahha!

then go back field. SOH won 2nd place. good luh. not bad uh!:P

then go home base. we changed home base to an air con place. hahahahh!

there we slack there. practice mass dance,which is afterall not bad. very interesting.

and then practice alot alot of cheer. the OGLs are all very outgoing.

they make the orientation very very funnnn. seriously. i cant stop laughing to their jokes.

so basically to me,2nd day was very very funnnn. hehe. was released ard 4plus.

then waited for zim and baz. then follow zim go take laptop.

then we all go causeway pt eat pastamania. there now our new lepak place. hahahahha!

standard uh jack! hhahahahhah. so we ate dinner there. and we were really noisy.

as usual. eat we confirm laugh. until the next table look at us and laugh with us. hahahha!

then we head home. check on my cafe awhile,then went to sleep.

3rd day orientation,14/04 was quite fun. but the most tiring day! hahahahha.

so as usual go school with zim and baz. in the train all dead sia. hahahhaha!

too tired alrd until all keep quiet. hahahhaha! so we had to go back to class.

for first 3 hours in class. my class ok luh. got davina and 1 of my grp mates.

the rest i dunno. but all intro uh on that day. coz we got 2 hrs free. so all slack in class. hahaha!

then 11plus went back to home base and had our lunch. practice a few cheers,

then all changed in the orientation tee. white colour,very niceee. but i like black better. :)

me and another 2 mly friends went into the handicapped cubicle and change at one go.

easier mah. hahahah@ but seriously funny when we all tuck in deep deep. hahahah!

then went up to the lawn. where the jam and hop will be at.had interschool comp.

it was really fun. really really fun. esp when u get to shout and everyone else ard u also shout.

super duper fun. hahahahha! SOH performance got wondergirls song.

luckily i nvr volunteer to dance. if not..sial la.... 2 times sia i dance that song. hahahahah!

and no,i did not volunteer during prom. hhahahahah! kena busted! hahahahha.

so yeah. all the performances were great. there were some really cute performance. hahahahha!

overall it was powerrrrr. hahahah! again,SOH won overall orientation 2nd place.

well,we all happy alrd. 2nd place very good alrd. :)

then played some games. took SOH pictures. i miss orientation. but nvm,all memories.

then jam and hop. me and my friend went to the front and mosh. hahahah!

seriously,not my type of songs but just for the fun loh.

then mosh with zim and baz hahhahhahah! good girl gone wild uh someone..

hahaha! then finish alrd,wait for them then off home ard 9plus.

super duper tired and sweaty. hahahhaha! in the train all sit down and keep quiet. hahahah!

i love 2010 orientation.

so on 15/04 school start. -_- i know. hahahahhaa!

and yeah 1st day i was kinda late for like 5mins? hahahahhaha!

my sis la dunno why that day she nvr wake me up. luckily dad wake me up. ahahha

then quickly shower and grab and go. ahhahahha!

thank god my teacher nvr put me as late. if not....die sia. -0.5 grade. :( hahahahha!

so my 1st lesson was on communication skills. quite not bad uh.

me and my group went for lunch then sat somewhere and do our presentation.

after lunch had to present. so yeah, 1st day alrd must do presentation.

but not bad uh. get to be silly. :) hahahahaha!

then after school met up with zim and baz then off out of school. head to imm to have our late lunch which ain joined us. we had a good laugh.

member semangs orientation tk ble angs sak. hahahaha!

on 16/04 2nd day of school. wore my mango pants to school. it was raining so yeah.

i dont like. sis brought the umbrella i always used.

so i had to use my nenek's umbrella which is hello kitty. use it until bus stop then keep.

dont want take out at ALL. HAHAHAHAHA!! so yeah,went into class

and yes,this time early. 10mins early. powerrr.

so my module on friday was science. i swear to god i hate science.

from primary school sia. hahahahhah! but nvm still study lah.

did smth about blood donor and recipient. i dont understand ape motive that module. haha!

luckily i can explain to my teacher. can liao. hahahhaha!

everyone was like online uh on that day. sempat webcam dgn baz. hahahahha!

then somemore ain yr2 added me in their mass convo. she say she add for fun.

i dont know anyof them but i bored. so just talk. hahahahha!

after school head down to vivooooo. haha! in the train cool uh. red line very quiet.

drink water also ppl dont notice. ok fine. 1 apek notice. hahahahha!

so met up with ain at vivo. hahahaha! then they 3 went off and i met with my sis.

so 1st we went to tangs to look for fred perry. hehehehe

tried out 2 shoes but dunno which one. so i got red colour. hehehe. :)

wanted to pay then they say if i spend $150 and above get tangs card,

since my shoe was $140 so i buy billabong slipper then get the card. hahahaha!

then walk2. went into alot of shops. then went into mango.

i wanted to buy the red shorts. i really really want. but dunno why i didnt. hahah!

since i promised my sis i buy for her smth coz she accompany me shopping for porm which

was like so last yr, i bought for her 1 jeans at mango.

why do i feel as if im the elder sister? hahahaha! she nvr buy for me anything before.

i dunno how many things i buy for her alrd. hahahahaha!

then went to levis signature. and i bought 2 jeans for myself.

i was looking for myself a beg but coulnt find the right one.

then went to charles and keith sis bought for herself 1 sandal.

then terserempak with the girls awhile. talk for a while. then they see my shoe.

ramen and sakura eh? hahahahahha!

so yeah then went off with sis,i was tired alrd.

so called dad then met him at the car. hahahhaha. and off home.

sis,mom and dad went to 2nd house that night. so yeah..

on saturday i woke up at 12pm. i was theeee best ah. hahahahaha.

been so long i woke up that late. and even better i had the whole bed to myself last night.

and the air con was bloody cold on 18 degrees. hahahahhaha.

it was like heaven ah. hahahahhaha!

woke up and no one at home. bro went to work, nenek go geylang with her members.

so yeah i slack at home then made egg toast for myself for brunch. haha!

so yeah then i left home ard 4 to meet dhan and zim at lakeside.

so reach alrd then talk2 bout school. then we were walking at that long pathway to school

for band prac then suddenly we saw this caucasian girl with her pet dog.

it was a small chihuahua. then suddenly it kept getting closer to us.

we move to the side and it kept moving closer to us. then the girl also dunno how to stop the dog!

like walau! then we ran at the grass there and ran all the way to the end of the pathway.

we can hear the dog barking loudly to us but dont dare look behind. like wth! hahahahaha.

wah scared to death sia! hahahahha. the mouth so big! hahahahhaha.

the 2 of them were like standing behind me then i go run far far first! hahahhaha.

reach school,slack at canteen first. met them give usual hugs then they went out to eat and

we set up our instru and practice. i get to hug my baby! hahahhahahha.

so went up to band room for practice. quite ok uh.

the 1st song we play i like. the 2nd one ahhhh cross out. hahahah!

and its so funny when we see running notes,then just play

then me and zima look at each other and laugh. hahahahahha! epic sia.

then zim and ramdan was like "oi..oii.... sap sap oii..." hahahah!

eileen one was epic siaaaaa. zim say"eileen oi" then she say.."yes..?" hahahahhaha!!!

that was funny. then keep instru and head to canteen.

zim stuck pat basikal pe? hahahahhahah!! then walk to mac i buy dinner for me and nenek.

and chee liong super paiseh at mac. hahahahahha!

then yeah off home. hahahahha!

ok i want say a joke. i mean it is super duper funny lah. seriously.

so it happened in the train otw to school. not sure if it was tuesday or wed morning. we 3 were very sleepy. very sleepy. and we standing. so yeah. we standing at the glass panel there. then the opposite seat was empty so one of the person standing near there was slowly carrying his things to move to that seat. then we stop at a stop and the door open,one man quickly walk to that particular seat but he saw the other man walking. actual fact,they even clash into each other but the 2nd man just ignore and sit down there. then the 1st man face was like WTF? he was like so confused. i cannot tahan sia. when i see this. i quickly laugh so loud! hahahahaha.

then when i laugh zim was yawning. she couldnt even finish her yawn coz of my laugh. ahhahahahah! it was super funny lah. 2nd time happen at the same train,same day same spot. hahahahahha. this time it was between a business woman and a nyonya. hahhahaha. the nyonya want to sit then the business woman go cut across and sit there. hahahahaha! pity the nyonya hahahahha. this one also i laugh like mad sia. hahahhaha! from sleepy become so hyper. hahahahhaha!

i tell this story to ain,she nvr laugh. hahahah. i tell this story to chee san,ming jie, dhan, nayven.. THEY ALL NVR LAUGH SIAAAA!!!!!! hahahahha.

u noe got this fb group.. "i tell a funny story. No one laughs.. IT WAS FUNNY WHEN IT HAPPENNED OK?!" hahahahhahhha.

ok bye! hahahahahha.

i heard some preety messed up and heart breaking things about you.

at that moment i really felt my heart in pain. sob sob..

love,

MONJENG

always & forever

&shopaholic

2010-04-07T19:05:00.000-07:00

gjp,i cry out to you. but you cant hear me because im only shouting with my heart.

i was clearing my cupboard today. then i found my old hat in the cupboard! hahahahha!
i still fit. yeah!!

smile more often so that the world will be jealous of you.

then my hearts,which is constantly calling for you

wouldn't turn greedy anymore.

on monday went to school to collect our o lvl cert. quite funny ah.

after that went to macd for awhile. to buy cinnamon melts.

then head to mtt our usual lepak place.

eat there. and for the first time,i was last to finish and i didnt even finish my food. hahhhaha

it was only 2plus. so we head to ain's house.

sarafina was there! she so cute. hahahahaha.

she click with people very fast. hahahahha.

just talk about "lion dance" then she go with you. hahahahaha.

so lepak2 there awhile. then zima did 4 braids at my hair. cool uh.

then they say i look like fasha sandha at the show kl drift. hahahaha.

so they ask me dress like her on the next day we going out.

and so yeah. we started planning wad we gonna wear the next day. wad we bring.

from head to toe we plan. its like funny uh.

this is the first ever time we go out and we plan wad we gonna wear.

so i was supposed to be fasha sandha the next day. hahahaha!

after that went to makan shiok and bought ayam penyet for my family.

then went off home.and for the first time that night i sleep very early.

i slept at 12mid. very early right? if not usually 4 or 5 am then can sleep. hahahhaha!

so woke up ard 9am the next morning. text them. scared bubble again. ahahahahaha!

so shower then got ready. then went out ard 10plus.

met ain in the 185 bus and head to zim's house.

was buying hairband then the 2girls play hide and seek. i look for them until 1 nyonya laugh.

hahahahhaha!! then buy slurpee and head to zim's house.

we played with the lift bell. hahahahah. lots of times. hahahahahah!!

and get to see fasha for awhile before she sleep. so cuteeee.

so around 45mins like that zim do my hair. this time instead of 4braids she did 6braids. haha!

then she do baz's hair. then off we went.

we walk to the busstop and ppl see us like crazy girls. hahahahha. so hot and we dress like that. hahahahaha!

so went to taka first. if im not wrong. went in zara. look look look.

and i bought t shirt from zara. :)

then went in mango. from last time i wanted that shirt.

so try out 1 pants,1slim fit jeans and 1 jeans. in the end i buy the pants. :)

very nice loh. i like like. baz bought a beg and shorts there.

haiya baz,next time check the prics tag the right side k. not upside down. hahahahaha!

since baz's friend work there she asked for the huge huge mango beg. hahaha! yeahhh.

and we dump all the paper beg in there. easier wad. rather then carry alot of paper beg.

so wherever we walk everyone stare. yeah we are not girl next door.

we are girl generation. hahahahhahaha!!!! [inside joke]. hahahha.

then went inside pull and bear. i tried on 2 dresses. both very very very niceeeeeeeeee.

but walk2 first. walk in alot of shop to look for dresses.

then went in mac shop. so bright the shop. then i sit on the stool and the girl make up for me.

i was like very very shy loh! seriously. hahahahhaha. she ask me "where are you from?"

HAHAHAHHAHAHA. coz ain hang the camera at her shoulders and take photo when she make up for me. hahahha. then i say "oh singapore". then i laugh. then she say "oh coz got camera and all". hahahhaha. so while she make up for me then she talk malay with me.

so in the end i bought 4products from mac. yay! happy girl. hahhahahahha

then walk2 at ion. and went in pull & bear there.

after trying 4 more dresses,i bought the dress i 1st tried out. hahahahhahha!

then walk to fep. went duty free shop at builing beside carousel.

to look for perfume. but the one i want dont have. hhahahahha.

so went our normal place to eat. :)

joke of the day: "fezza asl kau kacau2 wanton ain?" smth like that.

hhahahhahahah we all laugh very very loud until alot of ppl look. hahahahha!

after that walk2 then slack at macafe. then slack at wheelock's toilet. hahahhaha!!

coz nowhere to sit. then go toilet. then slack there awhile then walk to busstop.

and head home. it was a very very tiring day. really very tiring.

that i fell asleep in the bus. i rarely sleep in the bus.

but i did ytd night. hahahhah!

so spend more than $300 ytd. im crazy,i know.

went home show my sis then she say " no more spending ahh".

durh obviously.

but i very happy. :D

with love,

monjeng

always & forever

&great family time

2010-04-05T00:15:00.000-07:00

why does it hurt so much? why do you continuously hurt me?

except for the fact i cant see you, that you're not here

without words you let me know what love is.

without words you came

so let me story. hahahahha.

so on friday 26march, head to school coz they having speech day.

it was really funny. first their parade was cancelled coz of slight rain then on back. hahaha

so they were all very happy that they got to march. as usual. hhahahaha.

brought my camera and took pics and videos. the pics upload alrd.

but video..... sorry to say but i lost it. ALL. i know!

i took alot of videos of u all but i lost it. even i am very sad.

dont blame me,blame my school. so sorry.. nvm next yr k? hahahaha.

so yeah then slack2 took alot of pics.

me and erin fell down hahahahha. her hand hurt and my leg blueblack. hahahha.

so yeah blablabla. then after that smth terrible happen to one of the bandsmen,atika.

shall not say. coz it was preety serious. so me,zim,dhan,latif,sulaiha,jonathan and mdm huzaimah

was with her. it was preety terrible uh.

aft that leemon when for late dinner at macd. very crowded but yeah normal..

after that went to jp to meet bro. accompany him to buy his things then off home.

the next day went to tamp as usual. i treat everyone there durian. hahahahaha.

wafaa was as usual very very cute. hahahahahha.

she gets very excited when its time to eat. hahahah. adorable!

sunday when to jp at night to settle our mio thing. hahahha.

coz previously the mio was in my parents room and starhub at living room.

then now both at living room. hahahaha. settled very late. so yeah.

cant rmbr what i did on mon and tues. hahahahha! but i noe tues someone _____ me and ain. hahahahahha!

wed head to _____in the morning to settle some things. which made me really sad abt my laptop. then head to pasir ris to meet bm. hahhaha. me and baz both sleep in the train. hahaha

then head down to chalet at pasir ris. very funny.

shall not story how we got in the chalet coz it piss me off and also very funny.

so yeah check in then i on my laptop to check it. and yeah make me very sad.

then the rest reach and started our nonsense as usual. hahahahha.

at night ordered 6 box of pizza 1 box full of drumlets and 3 garlic bread.

coz raining mah. hahahhaha. so yeah. ydaydayda. funny day. hahahaha.

thurs all slack. hahahahha. didnt go WWW coz some people tired mahh. ahhahahah.

friday was woken up ard 12 so shower. then slept back at 2pm hahahahha.

woke up at 4pm coz my cousins and aunt and uncle from kl reach alrd. hahahha.

so chat awhile. as usual.. all the gossips come out. ahahhaha. then all change clothes and

went out to eunos where my cousin "nikah". i wore a green kebaya. long time nvr wear.

by the time we reach over alrd. hhahahah!

but nvm loh. i many times see alrd. hahahhah! my cousin,khairul was so handsome.

i mean he was alrd handsome since last time. only all he thinks abt is real madrid. hahaha!

so we went down to eat while they change clothes again.

i tried my every best to avoid you. hahahahha. and i did it! hahahahha.

so lepak at there awhile. then they came down in new set of clothes. hahahaha.

took photo then talk2 awhile with the newly weds. then went off home ard 8plus.

had mamak food for dinner. powerrrr. then slack and chit chat until late.

i slept ard 4plus. hahahahha.

saturday was woken up by many people ard 9plus. if u sleep at 4am then must wake up at 9am,

of coz u cranky right? hahahha. so i get my mic and burger up to my parents room and slept there until 11plus. by then die die must get up alrd. hahahaha. coz my aunt alrd set to leave.

hahahahah! so hurry shower and get ready. i wore a red colour kebaya. hahha. super hot!

not me,i meant the weather! HAHAHAHAHHAHA. so they left in 2 cars first, their msian car and my dad's car.

my mom and we 3 cousins waited for my bro to come home from work. then we left in my mom's car ard 1plus.

reach there and the newly wed just arrive. so yeah.

shall say this wedding is different. have never seen before. alot of performances.

there was the usual and got gamilan and a group of dancers dancing for them.

the dancing was good i shall say. really good. esp when they drag the newly wed to dance..

hahahahha. my cousin dance so cute. coz its and indian song. so yeah understand. hahaha.

one of them is my cousin's wife sister i think. yeah very good dancing.

i was walking to the car with my sis and my cousin then they perform..

then i stop and stare(start singing). hahahah! kidding!

it was nice la. very good environment. although rain abit but wedding was nice.

my cousin as usual handsome lah. and kak shida was also very preety. haha!

i rmbr she telling us she taking out her braces for the wedding then putting them back on after.

hahahha. one of those days they went to my house to lepak. hahahahah!

so lepak at the car,my mom's car. no one so i play2 loh. hehehehhehe. shhh. hahahha

then took family photo with them. and atika was so cute on that day.

she salam me then hug me when i wan go home. ahhahahah.

all my aunts when see me they ask when my turn to get married. hahahha! funny seh!

im the youngest and they ask me that. they dont even ask my bro or sis that! ahahhahah.

then head home. to lepak. as usual. had the traditional tulang for dinner.

we always eat that on their last night here. tradition. bhahahahha.

watched chelsea vs man u. chelsea win. ahhahahah. arsenal win. ahhahaha

and the most stupid game was burnley vs mancity. ahhahahha.

fist few mins alrd 4-0 hahahahha! funny sia.

then head to mustafa centre. hahahahahha. i spam the chocolate like nobody business.

let me tell u what i buy.. i buy 2 big box of my fav dewberry. hehe. 1 big box of mrs fields.

2 big bars of cadburry-1tiramisu,1creme brule. 1 big box of my fav twirling choc. 1 set of kit kat.

and 1 box of choc and coffeww biscuit. HAHHAHA. yay! im happy! aahahahha.

head home eat like pig,watch tv then sleep. HHAHAHHAHAHA.

woke up ard 10plus today. hahahahha.

so we spore kids brought the msia kids out. too bad kak fatin didnt come down.

she working.. stewardess mah. tats why busy. she so long nvr come spore alrd. :(

so yeah went to peninsula. look at guitars as usual.

our fav hang out. hahahaha! i rmbr when we were small.. haha.

we would all go there during raya with all our traditional clothes. and we would run around there like small kids. esp at brass pasar. and look at guitars. hahahha.

so walk2. then walk to esplanade and then to marina. ate macd for lunch.

and the cinnamon melts is back! yumsssss!!!! im happy! hahahahha.

then walk2. i bought 2 crocs. HEHEHEHEHEHE. 1 green 1 yellow.

hahahhahaha!! im happy! cost about $100plus. hahahha.

then wanted to buy zara blazer around $129 but i got alot of blazer alrd. hahahhah!

then took 97 off home. slept in the bus.

so reach home.. rest and chat awhile then they went off home.

so yeah now im back in my room. :)

fatin say she probably want to come spore mon to wed coz she cuti and she can get free flight.

so im waiting for her confirmation.

at least with her here i have some company at home.

and we all always wake up same time ard 2 or 4 or 5 plus. hahahhaa.

so night time we're all always alive. hahahaha!

hope she come. miss her like hell!!

so yeah. done updating.

i dunno where my cousin go honeymoon. hahahhaha. but i hope he come back quick.

gonna give him a call. need to change my passport. hahahhaha!

so yeah. thats all.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&from this moment

2010-03-26T00:30:00.000-07:00

"we were having dinner and i snap a picture of him,cute kn?? hahahahaha"

and i never thought i'd feel this way. and as far as i'm concerned,
i'm glad i got the chance to say, that i do believe i love you.
and then for the times when we're apart,close your eyes and know.
these words are coming from my heart..

so....... i brought my family to universal studious on the first day of march hols.

i thought that since im working at resort world,i should pay for it. which i did.

and im glad they and myself had a greeeaaaattttt day there.

so spend half a day there. then i brought them to the restaurant im working in.

then walk2 around. then took the bus back to vivo. me,mum and sis bought ben&jerry.

then met daddy at the car and off back home.

it was a really enjoyable day spent together with my family.

so the next day stayed at home. went swimming at the usual place with mom.

can say we're "excercise + swimming buddies". hahahaha.

went home and we made sandwich. hahahah.

on wed and thurs i was working as usual. nothing much.

only as the no of days grew shorter, it became much more fun. :)

friday had movie marathon with the girls. quite fun shall i say.

hahahah. i want slumber party! hahahah.

so me,ain and zim were the ones at baz's house first. then syam.

it became a half-movie half-sleeping marathon. hahahahha.

we lie down so as usual eyes gets heavy. we watched santau,i love you beth cooper and abit of tooth fairy. gahahahah.

got hungry and ordered pizza. yumss.

which i will not use my no to order pizza anymore. eeewwww!! hahahahaha.

girls, u know i know can liaoxx. ahahhahaha.

so syam,u gave us 4 esp me a really shocking expression. hahahahha.

tkpe tkpe. give chance. hahahahah.

sat had pastamania for dinner. yums yums. :)

sunday was working. and it was my last day.

yeah,i resigned. coz of school and everything..

you know need to settle my school things. which i havent by the way.

gosh so troublesome to have a school so far away..

but nvm loh... so yeah it was quite a sad moment when i wanted to leave.

hugged everyone and shook hands for the experience.

they say will call for some drinks. i hope so. coz i miss working there alrd. hahahaha.

but nvm,life have to move on. besides im not the working sort. so yeah.

bye palio,bye resort world.

monday head back to school with zim erin and dhan as they had speech day rehearsal.

gosh i miss band so so much. i miss being in it, running around like some fool and everything.

haiyoh..so waited for them then went home tgt..

tuesday had a tak-menjadi-free cone day. hahahahaha.

its going to be a tradition. but this year we gave it a miss. coz the line was too too long at vivo.

longer than last yr.. so went walk2.

then had lunch at pastamania. treated the girls desert.

and its the first outing w/o camera. hahahahahah wierd though.

so we walked ard vivo i dunno how many times.

then went into tangs looking for perfume. and i was looking for some cosmetics.

so went into mac then bobbi brown then went to shu uemura to look at things.

the sales girl ask me to try it on,i said "no thank you".

then the girls stare at me and was like "try ah..try ah"... so i asked asked then i say "can i try?"

hahhahaha. funny right. so yes i was sitting at those stools and she was doing my face. hahaha.

wanted to buy but asked for her namecard and look at other brands first.

looked at chanel and anna sui. then went walk2.

then i went off to meet my family for dinner. so yeah..

brought them to harbourfront pizza hut, had dinner there.

told them to order whatever they want as i was giving a treat.

so yeah.. ordered quite alot,but to me,worth it. not that expensive to me.

head to challenger with daddy as i was thinking of buying ipt or ipod classic. hmm...

then head home as we all too full to walk alrd. hahaha.

wed spend whole day at home... doing what? hehehehe. comp loh.

and i finished true blood season 1 and 2. gossip girl season 3 ep11,12,13,14,15 and

vampire diaries season 1 ep10,11,12,13,14. yeap,thats what i've been doing.

and of course watching my diet as well.

today went to meet baz,max and boon meng at vivo starbucks.

had some issues to discuss. hahahaha. it was really funny lah.

we change seats like 3 times. hahahaha. bm brought his lappy so we used it in our discussion.

we were very long there and of coz very noisy. and i mean, VERY VERY noisy. hahahahha.

LWP came after that and joined us. then we went to LJS for late lunch. then went to kopitiam

coz bm wanted to eat there.

then me and baz head home.

so yeah..that wad i've been doing.

and yeah i was thinking of buying fred perry shoes alot alot more things. but gonna compare

pices first. and probably gonna buy the dslr camera from my mom. hahaha.

nth better to do,i know.

from this moment, you are the one, right beside you, is where i belong.

and for your love,i'd give my last breath.

i give my hand to you with all my heart.

i cant wait to live my life with you, i cant wait to start.

you and i will never be apart.

you're the reason i believe in love.

and you're the answer to my prayer from up above,GJP

love,

monjeng

always & forver

&great week

2010-03-14T00:30:00.000-08:00

HAPPY GIRL! HEHEHEHE

CHALET WAS NICE!! MEMORABLE I SHALL SAY. HEHEHEHEHEHE

so this week was quite okay?

one of my best week after a long time i shall say. hehehehehe.

so on monday i was working as per normal.

and i had to go home myself coz daddy and mummy had religious class.

on the way home i felt different. like something good was waiting for me at home.

so reach home,shower then check my email. and yes,i got a reply from the school.

it said that i am accepted into their school. which made me quite happy.

i felt the burden at my shoulder gone. like literally my life's broken pieces has been put tgt.

so waited for my parents to come home and tell then the good news.

they both went at the same time "alhamdulilah".

so at that moment i solat and syujud syukur. :D

next day at work was really really happy.

like suddenly work became so fun. hahahaha. probably because i was in a good mood.

and this good mood, made me buy tickets to universal studios for my family. hehehehe.

its gonna open for staff first then to public. so bought tickets at staff price for my family.

all my treat. good right? hehehehe.

and i was released from work quite early. at 7.55pm. 1st time you know.

if not always leave later. coz not many people.

so it was really a good day for me. hehehehe.

so wed left house for chalet. actually the chalet is from tuesday to friday.

but i only stay for 1night only. coz working mah..

so reach aloha changi chalet ard 12 plus.

and i was quite shocked that its directly beside old changi hosp.

then aft that me,naf and rafiq went for a walk into old changi hosp.

we went up the long steps into the hosp. we walk in the hosp. check out each floors.

i tell you,evening also spooky sia. no need wait at night. then went back to chalet.

then all of us went to walk by the beach. most of the time at the chalet i was with max and bm.

then aft that so bored alrd.. me,max,bm and yen hsian went to watch basu at 2nd floor in the rooms. we watch using bm's laptop.

it was really funny. seriously. ahahahahha. cant stop laughing.

then aft that baz,zim and ain arrived. so slacked with them. then bring them up the room.

of coz we non stop nonsense. i guess that day will be a memorable day for us. hehe.

perhaps that day in that room our friendship became closer.

hehehehehehehehehehe. love my gfs! :D

and yes, i kena bash up from them twice in a row. and all three of them jump on me.

shld have taken video. ahh damn. hahahahahhha!

so then send them to tamp int. walk2 at tamp one. then they went off and i took bus back to chalet.it was like 10 plus by then. met max,rafiq,gurmeet,chen hui and yen hsian at changi village which was somewhere near the chalet. they were eating there.

they say chalet very boring and no food. hahahaha. so yeah. from there walk back to chalet with them. quite scary seeing OCH at night. hahahahahah.

reach chalet,talk2. play cards,mahjong.

then we all watch paranormal activity together.

quite funny watching together. hahahahha. then play basu until dunno wad time.

then cannot take it alrd,while watching them play ps2,i slept at the sofa until morn.

then i move up to the room and continue sleeping there until like 12pm. hahahahah.

then they all play water bomb. which was not only water,trust me.

they were all so disgusting. they put egg,chilli,soap,oil,and even chicken wing in the plastic.

it was seriously disgusting. luckily i nvr play,just take pics. hahahahah.

then shower,walk by the beach again. hahaha.

come back play mahjong then eat late lunch,spaghetti. they cook. hahahahah.

then i went off late afternoon. i felt sick alrd.

all the way home i slept. never wake up AT ALL! hahahaha.

reach home i started having bad migraine and flu.

and my voice become rocker alrd. hahahahah.

so next day was supposed to go work. but i was so sick i couldnt get up. called work and told them im taking mc. hahahaha. then sleep back.

wokeup few hours later and went to the doct.

even the doct ask me wear mask. and by that time my voice my terrible alrd.

so got my bunch of medicines,reach home eat.

then fax some stuffs to work. then took my medicines and sleep till night. hahahah.

woke up and felt so much better. hehehehe. can jump ard alrd. hahahaha.

know why? coz gu jun pyo was right beside me when i sleep. hehehehee!!!

so yeah been taking my medicines regularly. coz i hate being sick. really.

coz i will have a terrible migraine that makes me feel like fainting. hahahah.

so yeah currently at 2nd house.

hopefully tmr will be a good day? i hope. for you and me. hehehehehehe.

ok then. bye bye!!

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&thank god

2010-03-09T00:55:00.000-08:00

so yeah. 1st and 3rd photo taken on same day. on saturday. :)

took pic of my instru. so long nvr touch. felt nice to hold and hug it again. hehehehe.

its like at one corner. and gonna be so dusty alrd the case. hehehe.

miss it. :)

and some 2 people gave me that balloon with a letter in front of it. haha.

so sweet right? yeahh. they know i've been having a hard time..

so give me heart shape balloon with letter from them both inside.

i was so touched. really. and so shocked of coz!

the middle pic is of coz me,at work. hehe.

i was in the private room at that time with some friends.

and my collegue took a photo of me. hahahaha. we like to cramp up in the private room,

make stupid and disgusting jokes and laugh our ass off. hahaha!

i only love that part of working. haha!

so yeahhh wont be updateing much today.

will be updating prob weekends. :)

next week is schoool hols. and 1st day of school hols alrd,i planned smth out for my family.

and i paid for all the tickets. book alrd,buy alrd. hehehehe.

feel so happy. cant wait! hopefully daddy can take off. hope hope!

but bro working. so he cant make it... :(

so yeah.. yda yda yda.wld update soon.

cant wait for tmr. partayy all night long!!! yeah yeah!

im sure gonna be fun! like the last time..

we all partay all night long! yeahhhhh!!

and alhamdullilah. the wait is over. gfs,FABSZ i know you all are really anxious to know.

even leemon. im sure. and yes,my future is written.

although its not excactly what i want,im fine with it.

better than nursing right? yes,i'll be going.

i'll be going to florida C college @ west palm beach.

studying business administration.

we meet up next week and reunion kayssss?

cant wait to enjoy and partay tmrrrr.

:) byezz

alhamdulilah,thanks for the best i can get.

no matter what,i appreciate.

and bersyukur.

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&depression

2010-03-04T21:55:00.000-08:00

"Gaseumi malhago inneun sarangirangeollyo"

look into my eyes darling

this is filled with my restless heart

as warm as a magical kiss

anayo geudaeneun?

i know you feel it too

the words of your heart is "love"

so went out to meet the girls just now.

quite nice meeting each other after a long time.

went to watch dear john. its a really nice show. truly truly nice.

we all cried in the cinema. very sad show.

syam sat beside me then she saw my tears "meleleh". hehe

we also laugh abt smth funny in the cinema. some aunty. haha. all 5 laugh. haha!

then went to starbucks and slack there for a really long time.

i think we sat there ard 1 hr or 2 hrs there.

just talking and talking and laughing. we talked abt school. and some people. hehe.

practically they all excited loh for their school.

but me nope. no school. hehehe.

so aft that me and baz chao first. managed to sneak some time and shopping for like 15 mins.

hehe. i had to get home early as i need to discuss so many things with my parents.

so so so many things to discuss. and thanks for the bag ain!!

i got a bag from london from dearest ain. very cute bag. :)

so talked to mom just now. she said that dad called them alrd. and by the way they said it,

i have a very very high chance of getting it. but its still not confirm.

they waiting for ppl to finish apply which is by tmr..

and me too. what abt my ngee ann? wad am i supposed to do?

mom said that those clear cut wont get have alrd been told that they dont get.

and i was told that i have a really high chance of getting it..

but still im still clueless. i've been waiting for 1 mth now. and still i cant stop thinking abt it.

mom told me to apply for ngee ann first and if i get that particular course then

the schools would settle all the transfer documents.

but the thing is what if i dont get? what if i rejected again?

all these have been lingering on my mind since like forever.

i've been rejected twice. and what makes you think a third time would make any difference?

thats wad im thinking.

she told me to just apply. if u get then thats good. if i dont then i may have to endure for the rest of my life.

so i asked her " if i dont want to apply?"

then she say im going to waste one year. or probably they're gonna make me apply.

i dont know. i really dont know what to do alrd.

my mind alrd blank when thinking about this.

i feel like i can go thru depression over this.

gosh. some people even say to me.. from the look on my face,

it seems that i have an unknown sadness in my life that can be replaced easily.

i dont know. really dont know. gosh.

do i really have to apply? im supposed to apply now..... coz tmr im working...

after i got that enrolment package,i actually hide it somewhere in my drawer

where i dont have to see it. why is this happenning?

why why?

help me,GJP.(k.g)

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&so many problems

2010-03-03T16:40:00.000-08:00

heeeee. extremely extremely cute. hehe.
finished watching BOF. and out of all the k shows i watch. its the best.
funny and sweet too. hehe.

i'll be going to korea to get engaged. coz he alrd send dowry here.
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHA!!!

so lately have been very very busy. i know i know. work work.
so my cny and vday was spent at tiara. my 2nd home.
all my fam members came on friday and we stayed there till monday. hehe.
pictures are all at my fb. and videos too. :)
it was great loh. friday night we just slacked at the outdoor kitchen.
favourite slacking place. hehe. so many stories were told.
there's one of my aunt who's very silly. she went to my another aunt hse and saw a bottle of cherry drink in the fridge. so she just drink. then suddenly!!
it turned out to syrup. hahahahaha!! it was really really funny.
we all laugh like hell that night. we slacked out there till abt 2 or 3 am then went to sleep
in each of our respectives rooms.

saturday had prata for breakfast. then just slack at home all the way.
the aunts are all cooking for dinner. so we didnt go out. just slack and watch movies at home.
we didnt eat lunch. so all of us was practically starving by dinner.
when they said dinner was ready, everyone LITERALLY fight for the food.
im serious. no kidding. my dad stand one corner and was speechless. hahahaha.
imagine young to old were fighting for food. some go take the food and run away.
hahahaha! it was really funny. and its these kind of moments which is why i love my family.
and i feel so blessed to have them as my family.
so while eating there were fireworks everywhere ard us. nice ambience.

after dinner stand by the front gate and watched fireworks. then we watched santau tgt.
quite funny ah. hahahahha. 2nd time watching. hhahaha.
at the strike of 12mid,there were fireworks everywhere. seriously everywhere.
as my house is on top of a hill,so can practically see all the fireworks. left right front back.
hahahahaha. our own neighbour also. hahahaha!!
then went to sleep.

next day had home made waffles for breakfast. then yda yda yda.
eat lunch. and also we fight for food. hahahaha. but not as bad. hhaaha. so cute.
then head out shopping in e afternoon. had dinner at a really expensive restaurant. haha.
when i heard how much i was also quite shock. hahaha. but nvm loh. very nice.
oh yah on sunday afternoon me and some cuzzins gambled. hehe. not really ah
we play bingo. then one of my cuzzin lost so she belanje us baskin and robbin.
i mean that was the deal loh. hahahaha. so fun.

monday had breakfast then went out. went to jackels. hahahaha! ok loh nice nice.
then after that all went seperate ways. and we went back to 1st home. :)

so on wed,fri and sun i was working. as usual.
then mon,tue,wed and thurs i work all the way.
yes very tired. trying to kill myself. hahahaha.
went to 2nd house on fri. supposed to go home on sun but when home early.
went to my atok hse. everyone watched om shanti om. nice lah the show.
i only like the song where got everyone. tat one nice.
and wafaa kept dancing to that song. hahaha.

mon and tues was working. hehehehehe. smth good to say. but not now. :)
so yah i got my enrolment package. but dont think i wld be accepting it.
coz its not what i want. and im still waiting for their stupid reply.
dammit. so slow.
gosh. so many problems. think easy ah. not easy ok.
i shld just go accept and marry gu jun pyo so no need sch.
hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehhe.

ook bye!

love,
monjeng
always & forever

&family

2010-02-18T21:50:00.000-08:00

to those asking who was my valentine,
i was my family's valentine. hehe.

best family cny + vday.
will update more soon!

tmr working!! argh

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& depressed

2010-02-07T23:45:00.000-08:00

so on thurs went out with gfs. we went bowling then lepak to celebrate ain's bday.

it was a great day. a really really nice day.

everything was perfect. really. and it was also the last day i actually laugh.

friday i woke up at 1pm. on the comp. and felt happy..

at 2pm i checked my appeal results, and i had the shock of my life.

it said my appeal was unsuccessful.

i was so confused. really confused. wad else was not enough?

i appealed for hotel management at rp. still not enough??

i was really sad. other people got what they want.

in fact,zim and baz are even classmates. and me? nursing??

no way. no way. even if all the other schools i cannot go,i will never jejak nursing.

i was really upset..

so i close my windows,close my door and light then wrap myself in the blanket.

and just lay there motionless. thinking and thinking.

i really dont know what else to do..

waited for my mom to come back ard 4plus,she called moe.

i didnt know what they were talking. i just know she was talking loudly.

so ard 5plus went out to pick up daddy and go help my unc move house.

we waited in the car, he came in only he turn to look at me and said,

"so how hafiza? nevermind. we will find other ways for you. dont worry.

we will make sure we find other way out for you."

so went to get the lorry then off to help them move.

carry alot of things. but didnt feel any pain.

and thanks to jane for hearing my complains. :) i rmbr the 1st day of work,wad she said to me..

really like my sister. haha!

reached home ard 12plus. didnt do anything but just lay in bed. stare at the ceiling.

the next morn woke up at 9plus then shower.

supposed to rp to talk to the principal. but it was saturday. so didnt go.

went to send the lorry back,pick up wafaa then off to tamp.

being with my whole family,made me forget everything for awhile.

my cousins and aunt asked about my school. apparently they stalk me and found out bout the nursing thingy.

so yeah.. just talk to them awhile. and hang in there..

went for a walk and go to the playground with wafaa.

took pics and videos of her. she's very cute. she just turned 2years old on 4th feb.

when we were walking i asked her where we going and she ans "pground".

when i asked her " happy tk?" she would raised her hand to a rainbow shape and say "happy.."

and when i ask " sape gemok?[who fat]" then she ans "afaa..."

when my sis wear her hat she will point and say "tats mine!" haha

she's just so cute.

went out to buy some food and ice cream. we bought paddlepop and choc ice cream.

so aft eating our late lunch we brought out the deserts.

i took the orders and serve everyone.

one of my silly aunt talk so loudly when everyone was suddenly quiet.. she said,

"sedap eh ni paddlekok!" and everyone stare at her then burst out laughing.

then we all say its paddlepop not paddlekok.

quite funny. one of the reasons why i love lepaking with the family.

cny week would be even worse. confirm.

aft tat went to look at cars for a while. very nice. :)

then went home relax for a while then head to 2nd house at night.

slept at 4plus last nite watching boys over flowers. :)

woke up at 12. then slack at the outdoor kitchen. my sis pissed off that my mom dont allow her to study overseas but my mom allows me to.

so we talked about the melbourne thing again.

mom said to try out at spore first, if not will discuss again.

gosh. this is making my life really hard.

really feel like buring down moe building. so pissed off.

i rmbr my mom said to the moe, "this is very tiring u noe. esp for a student who did quite well for her o levels and having to go thru this over and over again,its very tiring"

yes it is. very very tiring.

my head is constantly thinking about my future. my head is constantly thinking abt other options. but what other options are there?

i dont wanna do private. i wanna be like any normal person going to poly.

my mom asked me to go MI. but i dont want. i do not want to have to go thru 3yr alvl,

rather go thru 3yr diploma. gosh. this is becoming really hard for me.

the sadness i have to go thru everyday is too much for me to bear.

this is really really hard. i dont think im strong enough for any more barriers.

everyday i wake up and it kills me to know about the future.

when the wait is over,im shattered all over again.

is this a sign?

would be going to go for my appeal tmr morn.

hopefully dad can take some time off to accompany me,

coz i really do not know wad to do when im there.

im afraid i'll start shouting to the principal or smth. cant really control my anger now.

at least if daddy is there he would know wad to say.

if mummy there better, teacher mah. but too bad she also got lesson.

so hope daddy can accompany me,if not..

i just have to face the music all by myself..

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&dissapointment

2010-02-06T01:30:00.000-08:00

where are you now? now that i need you.

tears on my pillow. wherever you go.

cry me a river,that leads to your ocean.

ya allah. please just guide me to the right path.

the path i deserve and want.

im sad. very very sad. i think 2010 is not my year.

seriously,the start of the year alrd so many problems hit me.

i dont know how many times i cry alrd because of this.

and now i realised,the moment i checked the results..

the moment tears streamed down my cheeks,that same moment the angels cried.

i was sad. very very sad. i didnt eat anything the whole day. no appetite.

i didnt thought history would repeat itself.

so i just close my windows and door.

wrap myself in the big bed with my blanket and cried myelf to sleep.

waited until my mom came home ard 4plus.

she called moe. but haish,i still feel as if my future ruined.

now where can i go with 16 points.

im falling in love with melbourne. and seriously starting to hate singapore.

i dont know what to do already. i really really stuck and confused.

i really do not know what to do.

im too sad that i cant focus and think...

love,

monjeng

always & forever

&terrible sleeping hours

2010-02-05T01:55:00.000-08:00

i've been sleeping like 3am or 4am past few days. and i've got to stop. seriously.

its no good. no no. hahhahhaha!

lightning dont strike the same place twice.

when you and i said goodbye, i heard the angels cry....

will update about 4/02 some other day.

not really in the mood to update.

NERVOUS!! tmr appeal results.

hope i get wad i want. like seriously.

im tired of waiting.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY AIN!!!! OLD ALRD!!! HAHHAHHAHAHA.

HOPE U ENJOYED UR DAY JUST NOW!! :DD

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& listen

2010-02-03T17:55:00.000-08:00

a picture i drew 2 years ago...

wad spent at cheers.. :)

listen to the song here in my heart

a melody i start, but cant complete.

but i dont complain

cause i've been afraid that

you'd walk away..

so yeaterday was supposed to meet gfs at 12noon,but as usual janji melayu. hahaha.

i was woken up by rws's call at 11.45pm.

then starting msging ain and baz and realised they oso havent wake up. HAHAHAHA.

so shower,and get ready. at last we meet ard 2pm. haha.

got in the train only,we non stop laugh. as usual ah nothing oso we laugh.

im guessing we were the noisiest. but nvm,we're used to it. hahahaha.

in the train was atika and elfi. haha. and also behind me was shikin.

like so many people uh. yeah more to come. hahahaha.

then zima came in at bv. and more noise. HAHAHAHAH.

went out to change trains at raffles,wanted to disturb some people

but ended up laughing and running to catch the other train. HAHAHAHAHA.

went to wisma to return baz's work card. smth like tat. then went to get aunty anne.

yums yums. then went to sit down at some random place to finish on our food. haha.

then on our way to orchard central, haha. we saw daphne khoo.

then few seconds later,ken lim walking straight in our face. HAHAHAHHA.

we were all like jakon like that. like he some superstar. then we wanted to stalk him.

but of coz we didnt. haha. then went to orchard central spinelli and slacked

while drinking coffee and playing with some make ups. HAHAHAHHA.

we imagined we were in some huge mansion and at the balcony. hahahahhaha!

then we walked to 313 and walk2. i cant rmbr wad else we did,but i know that there were ALOT of walking & laughing.

and then zima started talking really loudly at orchard. hahahah.

then went to heeren. to tgif.

saw wy so talked awhile with her. then off to dunno where,

and met atika. who was working i suppose. haha.

then walk and walk and walk. we really walk alot.

then went to eat at usual place @ cahaya.

our fav wanton. hahahah. nice. really nice.

ain kene kacau alot ytd. hahahhhha. we saw alot of her friends uh. hahahah. :)

me and baz bought sweater from uniqlo. haha.

she wants to use to at poly. and me at melbourne. HAHAHAHHHA.

im kidding. :)

after that off home. reached home ard 9plus. legs killing me.

and as usual use comp till very late.

slept only ard 4plus. gosh,i must stop this.

ok i will when they call. dammit. so long!

pssst my granny on the phone with her members and i can hear her gossiping about me to them. she telling them about my first day of work. haha!

AND ADULT FARE SUCKS!!!! REALLY REALLY SUCKSS!!!!

love,

monjeng

always & forever

& melbourne?

2010-02-03T02:50:00.000-08:00

have you ever wondered what hurts the most? saying something & wishing you hadnt? or saying nothing & wishing you had? i guess the most important things are the hardest to say. dont be afraid to tell someone you love them. if you do,they might break your heart. if you dont,you might break theirs. have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesnt. you cant tell your heart what to do. it does it on its own when you least suspect it, or even when you dont want it to. have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? too many of us stay wailed up because we are too afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. have you ever denied your feelings for someone because of fear of rejection was too hard to handle? we tell lies when we are afraid.. afraid of what we dont know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. but everytime we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. life is all about risks & it requires you to jump. dont be a person who has to look back & wonder what they would have done, or could have had. what would you do of everytime you fell in love you had to say good bye? what would you do if everytime you wanted someone they would never be there? what would you do if the one you love dies tomorrow & you never got to tell them how you felt? what would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldnt have them?

now i know. all those jc people are ending up in poly. even the top scorer is going to poly, for godness sakes. its true wad ain said, spore moe is the cruelest and meanest thing ever. its because of you people that people like us never have a chance.

better wad if i leave spore. go melbourne now. besides im going to go there anyways aft poly.

3 yr wouldnt make a diff. might as well go now. tired and bored of spore alrd.

i may seem quiet about it,but i still love you. i do. maybe you think i have forgotten you and moven on but honestly i still rmbr and love you. always & forever.

but i guess you see no hope in us.

so i guess leaving for overseas wouldnt be so bad either.

its better for me to love you deeply from somewhere far away and knowing the reason why we cant be together is because of distance rather than to love you in the same country and knowing the actual reason is love.

why is life so hard?

love,

monjeng

always & forever